gallery piece(jori!)

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jades pov

'of course i'm the one who has to do this, not andre, not beck, not cat, not even robbie, me,'i sigh as i shut my car off and lock it. walking up to none other than tori vegas house, why was i here. why didn't i just say no. it's not my issue that tori hasn't been coming to school, or answering her messages or calls. or communicating with any of us at all, the rest of our friend group are so emotionally unavailable that they forced me to come to deal with whatever's going on with her

i knock on the door and wait for an answer, nothing. i knock a few more times and wait, again there's nothing, a pit of dread sets in my stomach. i go to open the door and it's unlocked, 'god no,' i go inside and a foul smell hits my nose 'no no no god' i run upstairs to toris room and the smell gets worse, i slowly open the door and see a lump that looks like tori in the bed. there's trash everywhere, plates of rotting food. clothes, 'jesus christ' i walk up to tori and thank fuck, she's breathing. i shake her slightly and she stirrs, "vega." tori sits up and looks at me, before her face twists into a scared expression "what are you doing here!?"

"our amazing friends forced me to check on you because they don't wanna deal with it" she doesn't say anything, i notice she's playing with the sleeves of her sweater. and her expression looks almost ashamed "they're probably worried sick" tori sighs and runs a hand(or tries to) through her tangled hair. "whatever, why haven't you been at school?" she says nothing and looks down again "hello? earth to tori vega?" "uh, i just haven't been" tori stands up and i immediately notice a few things, she's gained weight. it's not a bad look on her, and it's not much. but it's there, and she has dark circles under her eyes. jesus, what's wrong with her, "you look horrible" "i know" she's not trying to fight me. normally i laugh when she's upset or distressed but there's a serious issue here that i can't put my finger on "wanna get out of here, it smells horrible" "i guess..i don't really look good enough to go out though," she's right "let's go to mine," i start walking out of the room. she didn't budge "cmon, before i change my mind" tori starts walking behind me  and we leave, i unlock the car and get in, waiting for her to get in the passenger side. once she does i start the car, pulling out of the driveway. she looks at me "you didn't have to come to my house" "beck wouldn't stop bugging me until i did", "i'm surprised you're not laughing in my face right now." i didn't say anything and continued to drive

we shortly arrived at my house and i stepped out of the car, i had no idea why i was doing this. i just had this feeling in the pit of my stomach that if i left her alone something seriously bad would happen, i walked over to the other side and opened her door for her. "thanks", i didn't respond. she'd never been to my house before, i don't think anyone in our group has besides beck but. he's my boyfriend so it makes sense, we made our way inside and i saw tori looking around. trying not to look too curious about it, "come upstairs" i started up the stairs and by the sound of wood creaking behind me i knew she was following. i opened the linen closet and grabbed a towel, then i went into my room, went into my drawers and grabbed a pair of black sweatpants and a grey hoodie. "go shower, you stink" i shoved the clothes and towel into her arms and closed the door in her face

after about 5 minutes i heard the shower running, i forgot to tell her how the knob works, oops. i turned my tv on and put on the horror movie channel, 'i don't know why i'm doing this. i don't even want her in my house', i mean i knew why, it was obvious something was wrong with her. like seriously wrong, and i needed answers out of her so our friends will leave me the hell alone, the entire week i've had to hear "i'm so worried about tori" yet none of them checked in on her, besides texting her. but no one got a response, i mean. she could've been dead, i thought she was dead when i first got there. my chest tightens at the thought of finding vega dead in her room, as much as i don't like her, school wouldn't be the same without her. her annoying positivity and need to help everyone holds our group together and if she died we'd fall apart. my heart starts beating faster as i think of how andre would react. he'd lose his mind, him and tori are like brother and sister. i shake myself out of my thoughts when i hear the shower stop running, after about 5 minutes she opens the door. and looks a LOT better, considering before she looked like she had been sleeping for two weeks or had been in a two month coma. "jade?" "yeah?" "can i go home?"

"why do you want to?" she looks at me but she's not actually looking AT me, her eyes are glassy and unfocused. "i just want to be alone, i don't know," she sighs, okay that's it, i've had enough of this. i stand up and back her into the wall "what the fuck crawled up your ass and died there? what is wrong with you lately!?" i grab her shoulders and start shaking her. i always thought i'd prefer a sad tori over a happy one but god this was too much. "why do you care!?, i bet you'd-" i cut her off "shut up! just tell me," she sighs again, in defeat this time, "i've been really sad, i take medication for it but it doesn't help, i was in the mental hospital for a few days because.." she swallows and looks away, no, my stomach drops, she didn't try to... "tori.." she closes her eyes and, she's crying, fuck. what do i do, "i bet you think i'm weak" she sobs out. she covers her face with her hands and continues to cry, shaking. "no, fuck- i'm sorry i didn't mean to pry-" "but you DID mean to pry, you made me tell you. even though i didn't want to because you don't care!!" "so why didn't you tell andre?.." she shakes her head "because he'd be disappointed in me." i back away from her and she sinks to the floor, totally breaking down, mumbling stuff through her tears. after a little while she gets up "i need to go," and with that, she's gone. i stand there for a minute before running after her, she was down the street. "vega!! wait!" she turned around, "what?!" "at least let me give you a ride!" it really was the least i could do. even for her,
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why was i helping her clean her room. why was i helping her clean it for the past hour and a half, it was 6:30 pm on a saturday and i was helping tori fucking vega clean her nasty room, we were about halfway done when vega said she was tired and said i could leave if i wanted to, so i did. and now i'm in my room, watching the scissoring like i always do when i'm trying to process stuff, i also had my rabbit on my
bed. he helped calm me down and he made me happy. i didn't know tori was even capable of being depressed, she's usually a ball of happiness that infects everyone else, besides me. i don't get infected by her because i hate that she's always so happy, but i hate that she's like this more. i'm going to get to the bottom of how and why, if it's the last thing i do

this story is mainly a vent! i like using writing to express my emotions even if i'm not great at it, but there's an actual story here too.