Random Rants and Rambles

I'm Back... Kinda

So I've been on an impromptu hiatus, not by choice though. I just felt like I couldn't deal with being present in all spheres of my life you know. The emoional and verbal abuse in my house has gotten worse, but at least now I have someone to talk to. My bestie is going through the same thing with her mom so you could say we relate to each other. She's honestly my anchor, she's basically one of the only things keeping me alive at this point.

My other siblings are very aware of my mother's favoritism and use it to their advantage. Always trying to get me in trouble to giv3 themselves a good name. I'm really struggling and it has taken a toll on my academics. I feel like I need to do something extreme, so I decided that cutting my hair is the closest thing. I can't wait, I'm planning to do it in five days.

P. S mom if you're reading this, I have finally reached the point where I've realized that I hate you with all my being for all that you've put me through. No amount of tears, apologies or even those "happy" moments we share together could erase that. I wish nothing more than for you to die every day of my life. I can't wait to escape your graps and finally show you this. Thanks for giving me childhood trauma🙂.