Love The Chase

LTC51

I smiled faintly after I finally picked an aviator sunglasses to cover my swollen eyes, as if this would refrain my brother from interrogating me.

I stared at the screen of my phone for God knows how many times already. I sighed heavily when there is still no any new message came. I'm really getting close to the thought that he's been ignoring my messages intentionally. I just kept on hurling it away because it's making me cry. I got used to being ignored by my parents, some classmates, and even teachers yet this seems like a foreign feeling to me which even weaken my will to get off my bed this morning.

I like him. That's not hard to admit and I see no point of denying, however I didn't know that I like him this much. I was really having fun teasing him and being open about how I feel, unknowingly, it became serious that for once I forgot that he probably does not feel the same or was just feeling a tender pity for me. But then sometimes I feel like he quite likes me, I just don't want to hold onto it unless he said it himself.

Creating uncertain expectations sucks big time so I'd rather lean on the thought that it's just me assuming things.

I can bear the thought of him not liking me back but not him being mad at me.

"Tria! Hindi ka pa nag-aalmusal anong oras ka na naman ba natulog kagabi?!" My brother yelled that made me panic.

Mabilisan kong inayos ang kama ko at paulit-ulit na inilapit ang mga namumugtong mata sa salamin. Halata talaga. I have no choice but to look like stupid wearing a sunglasses after waking up.

"Open the damn door, Shantria!" I shook my both hands and exhaled one big blow of air before opening the door.

Pagbukas ko ng pinto ay agad akong tumalikod kay kuya at kunwaring may hinahanap. "K-kuya nakita mo ba yung...yung suklay ko?"

"You already combed your hair. Alam ko ang itsura mo pag walang suklay. Stop pretending now and face me. You're wearing a sunglasses, huh? Bakit nakagat ka ng ipis sa mata?" Tuloy tuloy na sabi ni kuya. Napapikit akong nang mariin bago humarap sa kanya.

He tried to remove my sunglasses but I stepped backwards leaving his face crumpled in annoyance. I smiled cutely and squeezed my tummy.

"Gutom na ko kuya anong ulam? Grabe sarap ng tulog ko kagabi, umulan pala?" Sabi ko kahit wala naman talaga akong tulog at hindi sigurado kung umulan nga.

"You'll remove that thing or I'll remove it myself?"

I swallowed hard when my brother's tone became firm. I sighed in defeat. I have no choice anyway. Slowly, I removed my sunglasses and locked my eyes on the marble floor tile of my room.

"Lift your head," he commanded.

"Baby don't be scared.." I sang

"Hindi ako nakikipagbiruan, Shantria."

I bit my lip and whispered a sorry. Hinarap ko na si kuya dahil mukang pikon na pikon na siya. Agarang kumunot ang noo niya at itinagilid ang ulo para tignang mabuti ang mukha ko.

"You cried," he stated with his eyes looking mad. He crossed his arms as a sign for me to say something. But before I could even utter a word, my eyes started to water.

Niyakap ko ang kuya ko at sumubsob sa dibdib niya. "He's mad at me Kuya... I can feel it... galit siya kuya," I cried.

He didn't say anything and just hugged me back quietly. "Hindi siya.. hindi siya nag rereply kuya... ayaw na niya akong kausapin," I sobbed and hugged my brother tighter.

He cupped my face and wiped my tears with his thumb. "Kumain ka na at maligo. May pupuntahan tayo."

Kuya kissed me on my forehead before leaving my room.