FVCK BUDDY

THE SEED

There was a time when I was alone no where to go I called him asking if I can stay for the night but before he could speak I heard them moaning saying each other's name and with that a tear fell on my cheek.

yes I knew it all along but I love him . 3fvcking years we did that and now I'm feeling like I'm dying inside .

For 3 months I'm reeling nausea and I'm hungry all the time ..

I ask my mom to accompany me to the hospital .

After we went to the hospital I can't stop crying ..

The Doctor gave us the test results and it turned out I'm pregnant for 3months .

Mom was shock looking at me,
The Doctor felt like it's a private talk he excuse himself.

'Pran who is he?'

My mom asking me shaking .

I don't know what to say.

I inherited my uncle's side.

'Pran who is he?'

Mom kept asking me.

I see now man can get pregnant.

my mom was crying and kept asking me who's the father , I can't tell her .

I'm still crying and still look for Pat .

But deep inside me I know I can't get anything from him, I Know that he won't accept me and our child .

My Dad and Mom came up with an idea
They pursue me to go to england to keep my pregnancy and to study there while I'm at this state .

I ask them if I can talk to Pat one last time and they agree since ohm' family treated my like their own son.

I called Pat and ask if he can make sometime for me and meet me at our usual spot he said he'll come but with his new girlfriend My heart breaks into pieces ..

At the Park ..

'hey sorry for keeping you waiting, and I didn't brought Gina with me cause you sounded like your a cry puppy ' Pat said while messing my hair laughing .

I look at him smiling like there's no problem between us .

I need to tell him atleast .

'Pat .. I love you ' I said while keeping myself from crying .

'I Love you too , Sorry If I can't go to the hospital with you, are you okay now? What did the doctor said?'

He look at me all smiling .

' I need to tell you something,but it's okay if you dont take it seriously .'

Pat hold my hand like a worry puppy.

I took his other hand and made him touch my belly.

His eyes are confuse .

' Pat . I'm pregnant '
I told him finally but his eyes are looking so confused like he doesn't know what to do .

'how many months?'

He ask . I just motion my fingers into a 3 sign.

He's crying like me.

' is it me? '

That's when my whole world crush.

' you shit of course it's yours who would it be? '

I shouted at him crying .

' I-I can't believe it' his face shock from what I said .

I look at him like I'm about to bury him 6 feet under.

'oh yeah I remember I'm your cum dump, it's okay, it's my fault too believing that you'll love me but who am I anyways , I'm sorry , you don't have to worry for my child, Don't worry I promise I will make him a good person unlike his other father . Thank you for everything , I love you .'

After that I left him, and I'm still crying .

I can still see him standing there.

I hold into my baby bump and kept caressing it .

'baby I know that it's a wrong Idea to not let your father meddle with our lives but he has some one now'.

I went to Pat's house looking for his parents .

I saw his sister Pa and Ink doing their projects at the living room.

Pa saw me.

'P'Pran it's so nice to see you, P'Pat isn't home .'

I just smiled at her.

' no, I'm here to talk to auntie and uncle are thy home ?'

with curious eyes, Pa called his parents .

They held me and auntie kiss me on the cheek .

' this is strange, usually you and Pat are no where to be seen .'

Uncle said.

I look at them in a serious face.

Auntie saw that and she said we have to talk privately