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Excerpts of A Chaotic Mind

Poetry

Welcome to the inner workings of my mind. The thoughts and emotions I battle and the imaginary scenarios I dream up sometimes. Think of this is as my own public diary. . I will warn there are some themes surrounding mental health, self harming tho...

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all for you

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by Emotional_Cookies

by Emotional_Cookies

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For you, all for you.
I'll move the heavens and the earth.

I'll relinquish my small joys that are not mutual.
For you.

I'll spend my nights trying to prove my love for you.
Always for you.

I'll spend my evenings crying over inconveniences that spoil your ideal plans.
For you.

I'll stare at my body in the mirror and conjure the woman you see.
For you.

I'll pull my hair, scratch at my neck, all the while forcing a fake smile to appease your worries.
For you.

I'll strip myself to the bare, to the core, and rebuild who I am.
The image of me that I thought you'd like to see.
For you.

I'll suppress the urge to cry when everything gets too much and placate myself when I'm too hyper.
For you.

I'll become a ghost of the girl before and let you build the girl you want.
For you.

For you, all for you. Always just for you.

Because despite how many people tell me that I am surrendering to toxicity..
Despite the many times I've been told to leave and find greener pastures..
I'm still addicted to the affection you give me and the love you share with me.