18/04/22
- The beginning -
The endless unfiltered thoughts bring smiles to my face.
How goofy, how silly, how funny.
I like the way he smiles and his short cut laugh
He is reckless in the way he drives
but he slows for me and my recent traumas
the familiar thrum of his engine
I have become so accustomed to already
The way he gives into the basic respect I've always begged for
without hesitation
telling me when he's busy and telling me about his day.
Though my nights are still rough to endure,
and the lonely moments still hit me,
With him I feel like I've reached a turning point
I'm finding happiness again.
- Flash to Present -
Its been a few months since that first text.
Just over two months since the first 'I love you'.
Close to a month since his room became ours.
And not once have I regretted a single decision with him.
Some moments when he finds himself in disbelief
that he shares a bed with me,
a girl he never thought would love him back,
I regret not clueing him in on my feelings sooner.
Sometimes I wish that I had never been with the previous boy
for all the heartache it caused me but yet,
I'm glad because it led me to growing out of my shell
enough to meet the light I needed.
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Excerpts of A Chaotic Mind
PoetryWelcome to the inner workings of my mind. The thoughts and emotions I battle and the imaginary scenarios I dream up sometimes. Think of this is as my own public diary. . I will warn there are some themes surrounding mental health, self harming tho...
