Dear Ben,
Everyone came over yesterday, it felt like I had the entire population of earth in my hospital room, still it was nice.
I'm going under in a couple of minutes, I don't know what to think, I not scared, per say. I don't know what I am, maybe I'm having an adrenaline rush. I don't know.
I wish you were here, you see you make everything OK, bearable.
I've asked Thomas to give you the letters if I don't make it, he yelled at me, saying there was no way I wouldn't make it.
I know I shouldn't give up, that I should believe I'll see you after all this, that I can give you all the letters myself, I'm not giving up I just feel the need to say;
Goodbye.
Just in case.
Know that I am loving you, always.
Layla
