𝗛𝗲𝗿 𝗘𝗻𝗱𝗹𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗠𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗰: #1

Last Shout of Acoustic

Last Shout of Acoustic

“Jacob? Jaila?” I asked after seeing them in my couch, looking at me. Kakagising ko lang at parang hindi ata ako makakahinga. Ang hirap huminga.

“Kuya, stop na.”

My eyes grew wider when I saw my mom at the window. “Kuya, please. Yung health mo oh? Hindi mo ba ramdam yung puso mo? Mom said na nagkamali lang yung doctor. Nagka-exchange lang ng results sa isang pasyente. You're getting worse everyday, and you need to go to states for your medication,” I heard Jacob scratches his head. Ang sakit, mas dumadagdag pa ata to eh! Ano daw? Nagkamali? Fuck!

“Ano ba yang sinasabi nyo?”

Fuck! “Bro, sige na. Tumigil ka muna, your health is more important... balikan mo nalang siya...” My sister uttered after leaving with my mom. Jacob, shook his head in displeasure.

Mali ba?

Pumasok pa din ako nang dumating ang lunes, I was making myself calm and stoic. Gusto ko munang wag tumingin sa kaniya... and then there Jacob told me that he made a plan...

“Ako nalang ang gagawa kuya okay? Pahinga ka muna,” saad niya at inayos yung cap niya. Nasa canteen kami ngayon at hindi na naman ako mapakali sa tuwing makikita ko siya.

“Okay, thank you bro,” I said before leaning towards the metal. Pinilig ko yung ulo ko at nag-isip kung anong gagawin niya.

Umalis na siya at noong matapos yung flag ceremony ay tumakbo siya papunta sakin. Kinakabahan ako.

“Kuya, pasok kana...” nakita ko ang pagsilay ng ngisi sa mukha niya kaya napamura ako sa isip. This plan is killing me!

“Ano ang ginawa mo?” He didn't answered instead he pushed me through the door. Inayos ko muna yung polo ko at sinenyasan niya naman ako.

I greeted my classmates and pretended to be so cold. Which I am not.

“Andra and Forcè.”

I really did cursed inside my head, images and statements began to scatter unto my mind, which feared me again. Shit? a debate? Lalayo na sana ako eh! Ano na naman ba to!

After that, she was forced to be a student teacher for us in our subject English. And she's doing well... not until she mentioned my most hated word.

Silence.

I fired her with words, while she's doing something infront. She was interviewing and I find it totally boring—mixed with madness. Gusto ko siyang puntahan at sabihan.

“You’re a flir—”

Narealize ko nalang ng matapos na yung klase sa kung ano yung nasabi ko sa kaniya. I called Jacob and he's not answering his phone. Fuck, out of service na ata!

“Jail—” before I could finish, binabaan na ako ng kapatid ko. I know she's upset, alright. But, this is love for me... I need to chase her.

Tumingin ako sa daan at sakto namang nakita ko si Jasmine at Ice na tumatawa habang nakatingin sa kamay nila. Are they going to...? I was stopped when I saw Ice glanced at me like his so sad. He's mocking me, I wanna hurt him.

She kissed his cheeks! Before pulling him, I wanna laugh so hard to myself. Aaaa! Last na! Last na talaga!

Pagkatapos ng debate na to! Last na, kakausapin ko siya. Can you guide me, Lord?

May nakita akong puno at iniisip na narra tree nalang yon. I know trees or landscapes can absorb negativity. But she did absorb it when we're that close to each other. Dinama ko muna yung hangin at tumingin sa langit. Ang linaw ng nakikita ko, and I'm so sorry for pushing through. Gusto ko nalang hilahin yung sarili ko sa dilim, not feeling everything or something. Mamaya na sana yung sakit, it's making me crazy!