The President And The 2 Bastards | SVT

13: I Miss You

    "You are not worthless because you are the most hard working woman I know,"

    My chest tightened again and my brain felt like it would explode at the thought of something.

    "Then why?"

     "Why don't my parents see me as their child!" I shouted.

     "Or even know that I can no longer celebrate the special occasions of my life. Because of them I'm having mental issues that I don't know where to go for treatment! I don't well I know what's wrong I don't even remember—"

    He gripped my other shoulder tightly and shook my body. I don't want to be myself. I get over-shared, when I feel emotional sometimes.

     "Stop!" He shouted at me and it was as if my brains were worried about something I wouldn't remember in a long time.

    "Wonwoo P-please don't shout at me I-I'm scared!" I covered my face with my trembling hands.

    I'm having some panic attacks again. Every morning I take pills.And this morning I forgot to drink because I didn't eat.

    Every night I have some check up on my psychiatrist. No one knows about it but me. Even my parents don't know about it.

    Maybe my hands got Wonwoo's attention. He took one of my hands and held my wrist tightly.

    "It looks, fresh Zhara," Maybe he says about wounds. I always accidentally injured myself when I'm not taking my medicine.

    I immediately withdrew my hand and wiped away my tears. My hands are still trembling like crazy and he holds it.

     "I really hate you when you're being scared in front of me," I'm not scared, I just don't want to hear something for abby.

      "It's me wonwoo! For god's sake! Zhara I know you have amnesia and you can't remember our past but don't forget that I'm also part of your life" amnesia?

     I didn't know I had that?

     "W-What do you mean amnesia?" his eyes widened at my questions. Why? it was as if I had no Idea of my own life.

     "Nothing.. " He took a clean bandage from the clinic cabinet and he wrapped it around my arm. It had a slash in the past because of the voices I could hear from my mind.

     When I hurt myself I will be happy.

    I know it's not true but my body really controls everything about me.

    "Don't ever hurt yourself again okay?"

    "Aren't you angry at me?"

    "Why would I?"

     "Because you know I killed abby?" He stared at me deeply and he sighed. He explains to me everything about his sides.

     The heart that used to be full of pressure seemed to reduce my concern for them a little.

     "I was just confused at that time when we were kids. I know I'm wrong. I'm sorry for hurting your feelings hara, not just because I can believe that someone died of our six" Six? I know that you and I are four friends.

What do I not know?

What should I know?

     I will not ask him about it. I want myself to be the first to know about my problems. And also that amnesia thing why my parents didn't tell me about that?

     And wonwoo doesn't seem to want to tell me the rest of what he knows. I will find out soon.

     Wonwoo drew on my hands a heart shape and he tapped his bed sign that he was making me sit next to him.

     I sat beside him and suddenly he hugged me tightly.

     "I miss this" And he started to mumbling things and cried on my shoulders "I miss you"