One shot that pop up in my mind

Lonelyness (English)

It's cold outside, so so cold. I don't really know what I am doing here, in this roof while it's snowing. I think I had a fight, for how long was I here?
Why did I leave?
My mind is freezing slowly. I can't think straight.
My family kicked me out, I am too different.
But I am not alone, right? I can build snowmen, some little, some big, they will be my family. I have no friends. No one, so the snowmen will take those places.
I feel the urge too build them right now. I need that, or I will die here. I am in a tank top, I won't be able to stay awake if I do not have a family to take care of me. They will all bring some warmth in my heart and body.
One by one, I create faces, bodies, people. I talk to them: « it will be okay, soon we are gonna be safe ». I will not be alone anymore.

This urge bring the craziness all over my mind. I can't fathom what I am doing. The words are mixing in front of my eyes. Do you see them? They are smiling at me. They are happy to be alive. They are not affected by the coldness or the craziness.
Suddenly it pops into my mind! What will I become when summer is back? They will just melt and then I won't have any family anymore !
So I try to make them thicker to help with the warmth. The more they are thick, the more they will be strong. I hug them, one by one. They are tangible and I need to ensure myself with that.

When summer comes by, I will just have to sleep until the next winter and then I would just have to rebuild them. I don't feel the cold anymore anyway so I can just do that.
My fingers are getting blue, is that even normal ?
I don't feel my feet anymore.
The rush I am in is running away. Adrenaline I going low, my knees get weak, I fall on them.
For how much have I been here? Is this the night? Wasn't it the morning just a moment ago ? Where am I?
I just need to sleep some times.
I will get up tomorrow and I will be fine. I will find out how I can find a home. For my new family and myself.
I look at them, smiling, I lie down in the snow, making a pillow with it. And I close my eyes after saying good night.

I just... need to... lie down... for... a little... moment... ... every... thing... will...be...fi...ne... sleep............