𝐑𝐁𝐁; 𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐱

𝟐𝟖- 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞

"make me yours if you don't want him to touch me so bad" felix spoke. hyunjin's smug expression dropped when he heard the younger say that "weren't you always mine?" he questioned pushing Felix's blond hair back

"was I?" felix questioned him back staring deep in his eyes with the same doe ones of his, the same ones hyunjin once hated so much making him lick his lips and softly smile, it wasn't a sweet smile. more like a threat, "you know what you're playing with right?" he questioned

"fire -- I'm aware" hyunjin looked away then back at the boy in his arms. he gritted his teeth before letting out a low chuckle that seemed to have mocked the younger "we've been here before" he spoke making a fire burn in the younger's heart. it hurt, but then again. he knew it would yet he still asked. felix chuckled sarcastically knowing what the answer meant

"don't hurt yourself over and over, you know I'm not the guy you should love" hyunjin stated, he needed to get it through before things got even worse. yet he knew that felix would still run back to him, he was confident felix would never leave him the blond remained quiet staring down at his hands which were rested on hyunjin's chest.

'if he's not the guy I should love then why does my heart keep beating for him? then why doesn't he let anyone even lay a finger on me? how could I ever love someone else?' the thoughts tormented the poor boy tearing his heart out of his body

and before he knew it, crystals fell down his beautiful eyes making him feel pathetic, weak, and disgusting. how hyunjin always ended up making him feel

he wiped the tears that rushed down his face quickly, taking in a deep breath he got his shirt from the passenger's seat as he collected all his belongings getting ready to get out of the car. he reached his hand to unlock the door before the taller male held his wrist stopping him from doing so

"don't leave" he uttered leaning in to attach his lips with the other's boy's but he didn't co-operate "you don't want me here" felix replied snatching his hand away from the other only for him to hold him from his waist

"yes I do" a painful sob escaped Felix's lips "please...stop" he begged for the former to stop hurting him so much, but he brought this upon himself "stop pretending like you care, you don't. and it's obvious" something inside of hyunjin began to ache leading him to believe it was his wretched heart

"so please" he sobbed again taking in a deep shuddering breath to help himself speak again "stop this, I'm tired... I'm tired of you wanting me only for yourself but then neglecting me like I don't matter" he yelled out letting his pain out soon realizing he shouldn't have said what he did. he felt guilty for some reason

"I'm sorry" felix looked down apologizing, and that was the point where hyunjin realized what the pain in his throat meant and what the blurry vision was indicating. he was beginning to tear up -- and he couldn't afford that, he couldn't afford to be weak and vulnerable. not in front of felix especially, knowing how much he has already shown the younger

how the other already has begun to make him feel better than his stupid drugs could, he was levitating by just having the other by his side without having to intake any substance how the blondie became his drug.

he couldn't deal with yet another problem to overcome. so he took in a deep breath opening the car door and felix gulped wiping his tears once again stepping out of the car, his hand that was rested on hyunjin's chest softly grazed across the soft skin of the older's muscles

and much to both of their dismay, Felix's bracelet got stuck in hyunjin's locket making him frustrated. he snatched the piece of jewelry away causing it to break and leave a scarlet stripe of a bloody scar on his wrist which caused worry to rush over hyunjin but before he could show his care