Drunken Nights Wild Hearts

Let me go

Susheela's pov
It's been a week since i left Pramod and yes I missed him alot but i had to do it.... I didn't want to ruin his whole life because of me.... I knew I was ruining his whole life he was young and he deserved better than being stuck with a one night stand .
Kia was right.... i was just an ordinary person and Pramod deserves someone like him ... Someone extraordinary...

I wasn't smart or even beautiful
I was going to get stretch marks and i wouldn't even get time for myself after the baby and i didn't want that for him I wanted him to enjoy his life and choose his love and for that I was ready to go out of his life forever....
I couldn't make him love me but now I would make him hate me.......

He would have never let me if I told him the truth he's to promising towards his responsibility but i don't want him to be tied to me forcefully.... I promised to Love him forever and i will

She looks at her belly and smiles
Pramod nahi to kya hua uska ek part mera hi rahega ab hamesha..... Hamare baby ko koi kami nahi hone dungi mai Pramod i promise apna sara pyaar isko dungi
aur agar kabhi mauka mila to uske dad se bhi milaungi..

Smiling i go into the hospital
S: appointment h
The receptionist gives me an odd look and shows me to go inside the cabin

I could hear some voices
If there was a patient already why did she send her?
Or maybe it's not important
The voice sounded a bit like Pramod but I didn't pay any attention to it maybe I was just missing him

Until I open the door and get freezed
My eyes met his

He was looking miserable and he had deep dark circles..... Ofcourse he wasn't all right and that gave pain to me.... but it's important for him I need to maintain my distance from him

We were looking at eachother until i realised it was too long and doctor cleared her throat signing me to sit beside him

I look at her with wide eyed
Even after when I said that I don't want Pramod to get involved yet he was here that meant his records we're not removed

R: Miss Ruhail sit down
I go and sit beside him
The doctor asked me some questions and then did a sonography but this whole time I could feel Pramod's gaze fixed on me
He looked like he wasn't even blinking
Maybe the thought i would run away if he blinked and he was right i was looking for that moment only

I didn't want to face him or talk to him because I'm too afraid

R: okay so the baby is much grown you could feel it moving right
I just nod not trusting to open my mouth
R: well you could feel some kicks too it might be a bit painful at first but you'll get used to it

I was about to get up and leave when
R: and one more thing
Agar Miss Ruhail aap ese hi stress leti rahi to delivery ke time complications ho sakti h and baby pe bhi effect pad sakta h

Great this was the last thing I wanted to hear now
Pramod already hated me and now after knowing that I didn't have abortion he would surely want the kid and now he would hate me even more because I was hurting "his child"

I moved out fastly hoping Pramod would pay at the reception and that would buy me some time
But instead I saw him hurrying off without paying meanwhile the receptionist was shouting

I tried to walk as fast as possible
He called my name
I felt myself stopping..... I have heard my name from his mouth after soo long ..... No but i can't!! I start moving again

I suddenly get jerked when Pramod ran and held my hand pulling me closer to him
His grip was really tight i winced in pain but he still didn't leave my hand
He was looking at me intensely looking for his answers