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I can barely say anything right now.

This is gonna message for myself and maybe even the peaple who still read this book, which I don't think. Seeing my other chapters has no view what's so ever.

So, Nouhaila. Or should I say OtsuUchi. If you're reading this, then let me tell you.

Thank you for All you're support you've given me. Thank you for everything you've done for me. Thank you for being my friend, despite not knowing each other really.

To Be honest, I don't really care if we know each other or not. I just want to stay friends with you, continue to simp for Madara xD.

My life has become a nightmare lately, I dont know if I want to continue on living. There are things that I don't want to see, nor experience.

But, there are things out there, that I want to explore. See them with my own eyes. Smiling. No, not a face smile, but a real one.

I want to experience a real smile, real happiness. Being loved, and bot being forgotten, or thrown away like I was am a trashcan.

I've started to think about things, I don't want to think of. Yet, here I am. Thinking about them.

They just keep on slipping into my mind again and again. I have to get my mind off with something, just to get away from my problems.

It may seem easy, but It's not as easy as you think it is. Peaple come and peaple go, that's the life circle.

There is no end to it, just as an circle has no end to it aswell. But, if you cut it. It breaks and falls apart.

If you don't understand what I mean, then just imagine you have an ball in you're hand. And that ball, is you're life.

If someone throws it to you, then you catch it and it came to you, just like you're life that is about to start from the day you were born.

Then, you hold the ball in you're hand for a while. Just like you hold you're life in you're hands.

When you throw it, it goes away just like that life of yours ends, when you die. And it will go on and on, seeing that an ball nor an circle have ends.

And if you get an knife and Pop the ball, the ball loses it's air that has kept it round. Then when you look at it, there is an hold in the ball.

Just like when you're life circle in ending. That hole, has ended that life circle of yours. And you will not be reborn anymore.

And you will not be able to feel the pain, suffering and futility anymore. So will you not feel any happiness anymore, nor any other emotion that was apart of life.

That's when you call it after life. You live somewhere far away from the earth, but don't notice it, because you're too busy doing nothing in the afterlife.

Some peaple will be chosen to be angels, or demons. It depends on how you were in all you're life's.

That's when math comes in, they will count all you're sins you have made. Let's say, if you have a total sin of 55% good, and 45% evil, then you will be considered an angel.

So I think, I have never experienced such things, nor have I seen them. I just believe in them.

So yeah. I may have come off topic a bit, but I hope you understood my explanation very well. I'm not really the type to explain things, but I try my best to explain it in a simple way, so everyone can understand what I mean.

I will try updating my books soon. But i cannot 100% assure you, that it will be soon. My imagination kinda ran away from me.

I wonder why, am I that bad? I mean, I do spend allot of time on my phone, even though I don't get any text messages or stuff. I don't feel thick, nor do I feel skinny. I feel heartbroken, by all the things I have seen and heard.

Pain may be apart of life, but sometimes it just goes too far. Life is cruel, but beautiful aswell.

It has its negative things and positive things, just like we humans. We can be nice, loving, kind and sweet. But we can be evil as hell too.

Not everyone is like that though. Remember, there good peaple out there aswell. So, don't waste you time with some shitty friends who just use you.

Spend you're time for something useful and don't waste them on those mf's who will break you.

Trust me, you'll lose everything someday, but until this day comes. Enjoy you're emotions, before they're gone.

Take Madara for example, he lost all his brother's, and in the end, he lost everything. You can't escape life, nor can you run from it.

One day, it will find you and make you wish you were never born. So, Enjoy it, before it's all gone.

I already lost allot of peaple I care about. And I don't want to lose Madara, Gojo and all of my friends. Including online friends.

Those, are one of my worst nightmares, if they will ever come true, just don't ask why I probobly won't be updating anymore.

But, I hope it will NEVER EVER come ti this day.

Even though, Gojo and Madara are just fictional characters, I have somehow managed to develop real feelings for them. I have no clue of to how I did it.

At first, I started writing, because it looked really interesting and stuff. But then, I soon realised how it feels to write Storys that peaple read and like.

It was a bit to seriouse for me, so I created some background Storys like this one or the 'take you're time and chill' book.

They are just here to make my mood lighten up a bit, though it doesn't really seem to work. I'm not forcing anyone to read them, but just so you know. It was just a side info about why I had started my author journey and why I started to write such books.

If there are any questions, you can text me on Instagram, or just pm me.

That's all I wanted to say for now. I will maybe write something like this again, but I'd rather save it for the 'Remember me, please' book.

So yeah.

Have a good day/night👋