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𝑾𝒉𝒚 𝒂𝒎 𝑰 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒉𝒊𝒎? ... 𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒏'𝒕 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒚 𝒂𝒎 𝑰 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒐 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒉𝒊𝒎? 𝑰𝒕'𝒔 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒅𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒉𝒊𝒎. 𝑩𝒖𝒕, 𝒉𝒆 𝒂𝒍𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒔 𝒎𝒆 𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒍𝒍.

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He chose someone else...
I've never felt this hurt before.

"It's just a boy" I say over and
over in my head

But ... this kind of hurt is
different..
I feel like a million cars just
came and hit me.

I thought he felt the same
thing I was feeling...
I guess I was wrong . . .

I put them together, I should
be happy for them...
But why does it still hurt?

I love him, but he loves her..
I hate thinking about him,
because every time I do I
can't help but cry

The way he smiles just makes
you think he's the only thing
his world revolves around.
I fell for him.

And he didn't..
I can't pretend like I'm not
hurting.

But I did.

Faked a smile, trying my best
not to look jealous

"They were meant to be" I say
demanding myself not to cry
Walking off together, holding
hands...

While I stand there like a little
girl who got her lollipop
snatched

Maybe I wasn't good enough
for him..

Maybe I should've tried
harder.

I really thought we had
something...

Sarrow, Pain, Sadness,
Heartbreak, and jealously
filled inside me

"She's my best
friend, she deserves this" I say
trving to make myself better.

Why am I lying to myself?
I wanted him, I needed him...

All my saddest emotions
escaped me, anger and despite
filled me instead..

Why didn't I tell her?
I should have said something.

I.. couldn't help but be upset
with myself
Why her? Why?

You could've chose me!
But ... you chose her..

I clutched my fists, not letting
a single bit of air escape..

I never felt so broken, but
what could I do?

He... was all I was thinking
about..

I really felt the love between
us..

But someone had to get in the
way..

"Stop!" I tell myself, realizing I
was holding my breath and
was gasping for air.

I was about to stop myself
before my thoughts became
more ugly.

I hate feeling like this.
"I can't .. I can't be mad at
her" I say calming myself
It was stupid of me to be
fighting over a boy that was
already in love..

There's nothing else for me to
do, I need to stop fighting and
let go.

If he doesn't love me, what's
the point of being here?