an essay to rebirth

chapter 3

I hate this ritual but each new member is accompanied by my brother for the first 10 rides and he might seem infuriating but he is so do not piss him off because I like you and do not repeat this again because I won't say I like you again okay anyways go my brother is standing there waiting for you."

He intimidated me with his grey eyes glaring at me as if memorizing everything about me, I quietly jumped inside the train to start the engine before he pushed me to the other side roughly that I tripped out of the vehicle with no doors, like who does that?

Bashemath

"I'm not your GPS so for the day I will drive." She glared at me and when I looked at her again she quickly glanced sideways and that's when I noticed her dagger tattoo on her neck, it looked new with the redness around it and the dagger had a crown at the top and it was wrapped with a snake, I touched the crown, traced my fingers around the snake and stopped at the tip of the dagger and gently released a breath and I didn't realize that I was very close to her neck so she felt that and I barely whispered "now I know what to call you" a pause, I loved how my fingers seemed to relax against her warm skin and goosebumps erupted on her neck and when she shivered, I quickly retracted my hand from it even though I was very intrigued. When I started driving I caught a glimpse of her looking at the tiny stars and the sparkling look in her eyes was something I admired in people but the next thing I did was I slapped her thighs and she quickly jumped up and by mistake hit her head at the top of the train and winced at the pain building up and I said: "stop daydreaming and learn the route I am taking." When I almost finished saying it I started massaging her head and she quickly scooted away and I let my hand linger in the air for a minute before keeping it back. She quietly said, "Kain said there will be a helper telling me the directions." She said it so quietly that I wouldn't have been able to hear it had I not been paying attention to every move she was making but I hated when they asked questions, so I simply ignored her. After a few minutes, she spoke up again "how did I die?" Her death flashed before me for a minute, and I stopped the train and remembered everything she has done so I simply said, "shut up and memorize it you will bring us back." She muttered asshole under her breath and i let a smile escape my lips before covering it up with a cough. What a pussy my mind said, and I said shut up aloud and she looked at me like I was crazy or something but thankfully we had reached our spot so I simply said, "Get out and open the truck then come back and drive for the next batch." She smiled and said, "A please is needed." I groaned and pushed her out of the car and simply said "You're not the main character in a grumpy sunshine novel so you won't get away with not treating me with respect so no tour of the place for you." She laughed and that sound was adorable, but I kept my composure and she simply said: "I'm dead I don't need a tour I have all the time in the world to explore". I pointed at the back of the train, and I swear I saw her stare at my fingers then bite her lower lip before she bolted towards the back. I really don't want her to be the main character, while she was taking her sweet time opening the back I had this urge to touch her tattoo again. I was standing behind her so I simply said "If you need help, ask for help dagger" She looked behind me with confused eyes then simply nodded and opened it finally and all of the beautiful dots flew away to their respective stations. She didn't even look at them and quickly sat in the driving seat. I wanted to tell her to open the door for me but the required limit of being an asshole has been filled and also there Is no door, so I just sat in silence for a minute or so before she asked me in a questioning tone "A dagger?" I wanted to ignore her but I had 3 options

1) Ignore

2) Act dumb

I go with the third and simply say "do you mind me calling you that?" She shrugged and then it went silent, she is my employee okay not really but she is I need to stop thinking as we met in a school where I am acting like an idiot smelling her, and all wait I haven't smelled her yet, no bash no. The following few hours went smoothly we didn't talk because now I was thinking straight and when we had done our last batch I nodded at her and walked away.

LIbithena

Okay he is definitely weird because he just left me at the station when I know nothing and no one and god I hate him. I've been standing here for 2 hours because I am scared that I might get lost and maybe I still have hope he will return I mean he nicknamed me for god's sake. Then I notice Kain making his way towards me and I show him my brightest smile and he looks confused but he comes over and says "What are you doing here thena at this time?" he seemed concerned so I simply told him everything and he inhaled for a minute before saying "I told you not to do anything that might cause you trouble thena I like you but I just met you so lets move, I will show you your place and this place is like earth only, you work, you cook, you sleep and you fuck. You are dead but your flesh is very much there so you will get hurt, you will experience pain, emotions but you won't die after a point it doesn't hurt anymore because you want it to hurt so bad but when it does you don't feel it, you want to die I want t0o e honest with you thena the other 11 girls have been here for long and they don't even smile anymore so maybe try to change that, I am aware I am being harsh but I am not here to soothe you we have therapists for that but I have that degree but I refuse to use it without getting paid but there is no therapist in a place like this and none of you can pay because in exchange for working all you get is food and place to stay." I am not brave anymore, I want to be brave so I block out everything he said and imagine myself in that green dress with red roses all around me, I don't even know how that happened but the moment I was in the cell my clothes changed to a red dress which was designed in a way I loved, it had a really soft fabric and absentmindedly I started touching the hem of the dress when kain said: "Bash made that, he made that for the 12th girl that would arrive and I was surprised it fits you like a glove." I fell silent he sew this and it fits my style, fits me? No, let's just walk I have dealt with enough creepy shit already