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...32 ʙʙʏ
TWO YEARS CHANGES a person more than I even imagined. There was so much happening while I had been living on Coruscant, and while living on Wysterya I discovered that I hadn't been taking time to take care of myself. Wysterya brought me many answers to the visions I went there to find, but it did not solve all of them. There were still nights where I woke up in cold sweats, some nights where the awful memory on the transport resurfaced, and even the conversation between Obi-Wan and me before I left. Kopecz's imprisonment did not bring back the strength and confidence that he stole from me, It didn't stop his foul words from projecting against my eyelids every time I closed my eyes.
After what happened to me unraveled, Edeline took me on a long walk through the flower field that I dreamt about, and she told me 'You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves. Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine. Meanwhile, the world goes on. Meanwhile, the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain are moving across the landscapes, over the prairies and the deep trees, the mountains, and the rivers. Meanwhile, the wild geese, high in the clean blue air, are heading home again. Whoever you are, no matter how lonely, the world offers itself to your imagination, calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting –over and over announcing your place in the family of things.'
