In a time we Collide

Part 4

Part 4

July 6 2022
Claire Sain Calsy's funeral

"Condolence Clark" i heard people saying to me habang papasok sila sa loob ng bahay

But i ignore them
I admit im still not the same as before after ate Sain died

Kaya pala hindi nakapunta si ate sa birthday ko kasi dahil may luekemia sya at nagpa check up sya kasi nahimatay sya habang nag da drive papunta sa lugar na pinag usapan namen

I blamed my self for it

"Savi come here !" I heard mom calling me at the living room

I went to her

"Baket ka ganyan? Nakakahiya ka , hindi mo man lang binabati ang mga bisita ?umayos ka" sabi saken ni dad

Hindi nako makapag timpi at sinapak ko sya sa mukha

"Walang galang?! Bullshit! " sigaw ko sa kanya

"Savi ! " sigaw saken ni mommy

I smirk at her

"Baket? Ni hindi mo nga kami maipagtanggol ni ate dyan sa walang kwentang tatay nayan! Tapos ngayong wala na si ate , ako na naiwan dito di mo rin maipag tanggol? Anong klaseng nanay ka?!" Sabi ko

Tears rolling down at my cheeks

"Ni hindi nyo man lang sinabi na may saket si ate saken! She's my world ma ! I dont care kung mamatay kayong dalawa ni daddy pero si ate ? Sya lang ang meron ako ma , sya lang kakampi ko sa lahat , sa lahat nang bagay na hindi nyo ko kayang mapag tanggol, alam mo yan ma! Baket hindi niyo ko tinawagan na may sakit siya " sigaw ko sa kanila at humagul hul ng iyak nanginginig na ang aking mga tuhod dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman ko

"Anak , im sorry , we didn't k ow either" aakmang hahawakan ako ni mama

Pero iwinakli ko ito

"Dont fucking touch me !anong klaseng magulang kayo! Natatakot kayong mapihaya kayo pero hindi kayo takot na mawalan ng anak " sigaw ko at tumayo at umalis

Pumunta ako sa garden kung saan siya nagtatanim ng mga bulaklak na nakikita niyang maganda

I look at the garden she made
Pinaghirapan niyang gumawa ng garden dito sa likod kasi mahilig sya sa bulaklak

Tears running down at my cheeks
As i imagine her watering her plants like everyday and wearing her bright smile just like the sun

I covered my face with my palm in distress

I can feel someone's presence

"Dude im sorry about you're sister " i saw ethan and sat beside me

Pinunasan ko yung luha ko at umayos ng upo

"Why are you apologizing? Are you the one who killed her?" I said and still looking at ate Sain's garden

He did not respond

"Are you ok?" He asked

I looked at him

"Do i look ok to you?" I said

"Im sorry " he said and lower his head

"Why ? Why her? " i asked desperately

Ethan rub my back to calm me down

" god has plan , maybe it's her time " he said

Plan?! God?! Fuckng bullshit

"There is no god ethan!" I angrily said