I missed you so please don't leave me and I'll love you like I always did

The Past

okok so I decided to write a story abt vermouth kinda past life ig. 🤷‍♀️

Sorry for the grammar and punctuation, English is not my 1st language

Vermouth is my favorite character and idk why i decided to do this...all of what I'm gonna write is basically my daydreaming thoughts everyday so bare with me 😻 <3

Vermouth had a child 14 years ago with her lover (she actually loved the dude guys, pure love) but he died due to overdosing on drugs

The Boss "that person" does not know anything abt Vermouth having a child nor do any members of the organization!

Vermouth had to give the child up or "that person" would have found it, she didn't want her daughter to live the life of cruelty and misery like she did

11 years ago

Vermouth looked at her small sleeping daughter, curly jet black hair, her eyes were just like her moms, her skin that looked like pure snow like her mother, calmly/soundly sleeping on the big red couch.

Vermouth looking at her daughter while crossing her arms with a sad smile knowing this is the last day with her baby

Vermouth takes a glance at the red box that holds a dagger necklace that has a engraved small heart behind it. Vermouth engraved the heart earlier to remind her daughter she'll always be with her

Vermouth heart aches, uneasy feeling and sick butterflies in her stomach, shaking since the morning, she took medication but she couldn't stop the feeling. She dosent want to get attached to her if she does it will hurt her more but she loves her baby her 3 yr old daughter that she knows loves her...the one who stops mommy from drowning in alcohol and distracts her by her love.

Vermouth's love for her baby took over her and  ended up cuddling with her, stroking her hair n singing her a sweet song.

Vermouth strokes her daughter silky jet black hair as she sings low calm raspy voice

Vermouth: My baby, my baby, your my baby, say it to me my baby

(Yes it's "I bet on losing dogs" by Mitiski I had that shit stuck in my head)

Her daughter smiles at hearing her moms voice, mommy was singing her favorite song, she grabbed Vermouth's necklace to try n bring her closer, she wanted to lay on her mother's chest and dug her face in her neck knowing she'll be safe from anything. Vermouth commanded her baby's wishes

There was that feeling again it hit Vermouth hard, a wave of sadness and regret. For a sociopath that teasingly kills her victims, she cried...salty tears ran down her face, Vermouth dosent know for how long she cried but it knocked her out to sleep with her daughter laying on her and Vermouth's arm strongly wrapped around her daughter, as if she can run away somehow

Vermouth woke up at the sound of Gin calling her phone. She didn't answer...she turned off her phone not wanting her daughter to wake up at the break of dawn, still cuddling her and planting softly kisses on her hand,head, and face.

Vermouth: "i love you" she sang those words softly to her daughter

It's time to give her up for a happy normal life it's what Vermouth thought...