Inhale as the blow hits your face,
The shock sets in as you hit the floor.
He moves closer and you cower
Pulling your knees into your chest.
Thinking of a happy place
Where pain does not exist.
The world goes black but in your mind you see
Colours, bright and vivid.
Running into the sunset all you feel is happiness.
Open your eyes.
White walls surround you like a cage.
Machines beep
People are whispering near you.
Jane Doe.
Unknown person, do you even know yourself?
No one knows who you are or where you came from.
Who are you really?
A partaker in self-mutilation
A Bulimic the no one knows how to help
A drug addict
A suicidal manic depressant
A victim of a cruel boyfriend.
Lost in a world of pain.
Who is this person?
A daughter
A sister
A straight A student
A friend
And an enemy to herself.
Two worlds,
Intertwined but never sharing the same space.
Each one waits patiently
For the other to self destruct.
As you close your eyes again
Focusing only on your intermittent breaths
You realize its time to change.
For better or for worse
You need to regain control.
Control will begin with each breath.
In and out
Slowly it will get better.
