Sometimes we see and just fall in love, maybe called love at first sight. I don't know what I fell for, was it the goofy smile, was it the tall height or was it the shyness, maybe his sense of humor and sarcasm, or how good he looked no matter what he do.
I didn't fall in love at the first sight. It took some time before I realized that I am falling in love with someone that I can't have. At first, I thought it must be like a teenage obsession or crush kind of thing which will eventually fade away. But when I cried at the thought of never being able to meet him at any point in life or never being able to hold his hands and be with him I got to know what one-sided love is.
It's such foolish of me to even think that we ever had a chance in the first place. After all, I am just a groupie who is in forbidden love with her star. There is no sense of truth to it. I know that but can not accept it. I know someday someone will love him and he will love them back. They both will be happy in love, get married, and have a beautiful life. I know it and wish him all the luck and happiness for it. But a part of me wants to be that person, a part of me wishes to have a chance with him and be with him. But I know I don't have that written in my destiny. And that makes me sadder.
I tried my best not to look at him or see his post, I did all my best to get him out of my mind but I failed and it hurts even more. I don't want to be a one-sided lover. I love him with all my heart and I don't think I can love anyone else like this. It's not my fault that our worlds are different. It's not my fault that I fell in love with someone I can't have. I want him to see me. I want him to notice me. I can do all my best but I can not be loved by him because he is not in my destiny.
As they say, first love is never meant to be forgotten I can't forget him Or maybe someday I will forget him but he will always be my first love. I will stay as a groupie for him and he will always be my star. I will see him from afar. Wish for his happiness, and stand by him no matter what. Maybe my heart will hurt when I see him dearly holding someone else's hand. Maybe a few tears will shed from my eyes then but I can never hate him for that. After all I am a groupie who is bound for one-sided love.
"Asaan hai kya..... aisi Mohabbat karna jiske badle Mohabbat na mile?"
"It's the most beautiful thing in the world.......
Ek tarfa pyaar ki taqat hi kuch aur hoti hai, Aur Rishton ki tarah do logon mein nehi bat'ti. sirf mera haq hai ispe.... sirf mera"
- From Ae Dil Hai Mushkil
*Translation*
"Is it easy to be in that kind of love where you won't get love?"
"It's the most beautiful thing in the world.......
The power of being in one-sided love is that it won't be divided between people like in other relationships. Only I have the authority on it... Only I"
It is dedicated to all the one-sided lovers and groupies out there. Fighting✊.
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