When He Saved Me

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I looked down at my phone and hesitated dialing his number. My brother left so long ago I haven't talked to him forever but there was no way I could stay here. 

I had just gotten my acceptance letter, which was the only sign I needed to leave my boyfriend Cade. 

I had been putting up with his abuse for years thinking he would change and would become the man I thought I had started a relationship with but he never did he blamed me for everything. 

A part of me thinks maybe I deserved it. If I was just a better girlfriend if I did more for him he wouldn't beat me. But no matter what I do I'll never be good enough for him so I needed to leave before things got even worst.

I swallowed back my anxiety and dialed my brothers number. I held my breath waiting for him to pick up he finally did. "Hey" I froze hearing his voice. "Hello anyone there?" 

"Umm Jake it's uhh it's Madison." "Oh uhhh Madison hey how are you?" "I'm ok I uhhh I had a question well a big favor I needed to ask." I hesitate. 

"Alright shoot." " I was wondering if I could umm come stay with you..." silence no answer I swallowed back the urge to just hangup and started rambling. "I'm so sorry to ask this I really am I don't want to impose it's just I just got accepted to NYU and I umm I really need to leave as soon as possible I can't ummm." My voice breaks and I scream at myself in my head I hated sounding so weak I hated having to plead with someone. 

"I'm sorry this was stupid never mind." I go to Hangup but before I can I hear his voice. "Mads of course you can please come whenever you need to you're always welcome." "Really?" My voice breaks even more. 

"Yes please come I'd love to see you." "Thank you Jake thank you so much you have no idea what this means to me." 

"No problem just shoot me a text when you figure out the date." "I uhhh was actually planning on trying to book a flight tomorrow if that's not too soon I'm really sorry to inconvenience you I know school doesn't start for a few months, I just I can't stay in California any longer for reasons I should probably explain later but I just uhhh I I really have to leave but if that's too soon it's ok." I pause. 

"No you're not an inconvenience that's completely fine." I smile we talk a little more and then hangup. I'm actually getting out of here.

 I started packing my duffel bag stuffing whatever I could in. Any furniture I had would have to stay otherwise Cade would get suspicious. Just then I heard the door open I quickly ran and shoved my duffel bag under the bed in our guest room.

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I suddenly heard glass shatter I froze and then remembered the acceptance letter, I had left it on the counter Fuck. 

I felt my legs start to tremble I knew what was about to happen. I quickly shut the door. I wish I could've locked it but Cade got rid of the locks a long time ago. 

I ran to our closet and hid behind some clothes I prayed he would not be able to find me, but I knew he would he always did. I hear the footsteps coming closer and closer my whole body trembling now. 

Suddenly the doors were yanked open. I shut my eyes but I could feel his presence right in front of me. I could hear his heavy breathing. My hands and legs trembling in anticipation of whats about to happen. 

My heart is racing I close my eyes and try and take deep breaths. I'm gonna be fine, Its gonna be okay. I tell myself over and over again.

He throws  the clothes off of me and grabs me by my hair yanking me out of the closet. My head throbbing from the action I try and keep the tears at bay. My emotions are a weakness. Cade hates when I'm weak. 

 "What the fuck is this?" He shakes the letter in my face. I try and keep the panic from showing on my face. "Baby I don't know what you're talking about. I don't know what that is." I try and shrug it off. 

"Don't. fucking. lie. to. me." He says each word slowly whispering into my ear in a terrifyingly calm manor. 

"You're trying to go off to college. Well I've got news for you. You're too stupid and useless for that you fucking whore." He laughs in my ear making me tremble even harder.

He moves his hand to my throat and lifts me up squeezing I try clawing at his hands but he's too strong. "You're so weak and pathetic you couldn't make it 2 days without me." He laughs in my face his breath reeks of whiskey.

He lets go of my throat letting me collapse on the ground. I curl up in a ball trying to make myself as small as possible. I feel him kick me over and over again. 

The punches then start. One makes it into my face I whimper and throw my arms in front of my face. He usually avoids my face not wanting anyone to know.

I try and make my mind go somewhere else and ignore the pain but I can't I'm stuck, frozen. Finally he stops and storms out and I hear the front door slam. 

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I just lay there and once I'm sure that he's gone I let the tears come out sobs shaking my body.

 I finally get the strength to try and stand up I see the acceptance letter torn to pieces on the ground. I gather it up and throw it in the bathroom trash can. 

I look up and wince when I see myself in the mirror my eye is already turning an angry purple and my hair is in mats and bruises form along my neck. I pull my shirt up and see bruises forming all along my torso. 

I don't let myself cry at the sight of it I have seen worst I'll be fine I tell myself and lower my shirt and take a brush to my hair.

I then quickly log into my computer and look up flights hoping that there might be one set to leave tonight. 

I find one that has only one seat left set to leave at 2 am. It'll be risky but I have to leave sooner than I thought. 

I finish stuffing some socks and underwear and a couple more shirts into my duffel bag. I then grab my hair brush and a couple of books from my nightstand drawer and stuff them into a backpack for my carry on. I

 then start to change into some comfy clothes for the plane trip. I put on a pair of sweatpants and an oversized hoodie. 

I put on some makeup. Carefully applying it over the bruises wincing at the contact.

Cade should be gone until at least 4 am since it's Friday night and he's pissed off so he'll prolly be out drinking with one of his friends until the bars close and then to his friends house to keep the party going. 

I take a deep breath trying to calm my nerves my hands and legs are still shaking. My heart racing at the thought that I'm actually going to leave.

I sit on the couch and put on my favorite comfort show New Girl and wait.