Friends since highschool, Beomgyu and Taehyun were almost inseparable. Despite the differences and conflicting personalities they had, they could never leave each other. Taehyun enjoyed and cherished Beomgyu's. presence. He loved learning Beomgyu's...
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Chewing on his gummy bears, Beomgyu stared quietly at his blank canvas in his newly rented studio apartment. Oh was he so doomed. For the past few days, he had made zero progress, the canvas remaining clean. However, unlike the empty canvas, his mind was all over the place with jumbled thoughts and things that he wanted to do and convey. He just didn't know where or how to start.
He sighed softly and took off his art apron, casting it to the side before he walked to his small couch and sat down on it. He hugged his knees and slowly finished the small packet of gummy bears, deep in thoughts.
Beomgyu thought about himself, his art, his purpose, his acting and his path in life. He thought about his mother, her change, her aging features. He thought about Soobin and Yeonjun, their kindness and care for him, their adoration for him. And last but not least, he thought about Taehyun, the person who shook up his entire world.
Taehyun. Kang Taehyun. A person who's straightforward and truthful. A person who isn't afraid to be biased. A person who only shows his warm side to the ones he loves. A person who cares for Beomgyu and protects him. And a person who loves Choi Beomgyu more than anyone else.
Taehyun always knew where to find him. He always knew how to give him space and time. He never pressured Beomgyu into sharing anything uncomfortable. But Taehyun also couldn't control his temper and anger. He protected, but he also hurt Beomgyu. And Beomgyu knew better, that it wasn't Taehyun's fault. Because the root of this problem was himself. Taehyun was possessive. Because Beomgyu had built a wall between himself and the others, not allowing anyone in with Taehyun not being an exception despite their closeness. And this must had made Taehyun insecure about their friendship... Or relationship in general. That was why he felt possessive and didn't want to lose Beomgyu.
Beomgyu had lied. He didn't actually hate living with Taehyun, no matter how much he felt like a burden or how stressed he was for living in for free. In fact, he loved being with Taehyun. He loved how they would wait for each other at night, no matter how late it got, just to chill and bond in the living room. He loved their cuddles and platonic relationship. Listening to Taehyun's new discoveries and knowledge was one of his favourites too, even if he was uninterested. Taehyun would always give him attention, no matter what he was doing. Taehyun would look at him fondly as he spoke and made sure that everyone else was paying attention to him too. There were so many things Beomgyu loved about being with Taehyun, and about Taehyun.
However, his overwhelming newly discovered emotions and feelings got the best of him. Now he was feeling more than just confusion and anger, but also regret and sadness. Beomgyu knew that this was for the best though; moving out and giving himself some alone time, and that he should not linger too long on his current emotions and try to organise his feelings soon.
