𝐔𝐧𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐝.| ✎ [ON HOLD]

𝟎𝟔|𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐱.

(TW for mention of abuse, rape, emotional and physical trauma.)

Past.
Summer camp 2019.

I probably shouldn't be here at this time. God knows what can happen in the middle of the woods at night, but fuck it.

I grew up fearing everything and everyone, no matter who they were or what they were doing. I grew up in a house where I didn't even feel safe.

I also grew up faster than any kid should have. I am sixteen years old, but it feels like I have been so for years now. After dad died and my mother lost herself in drugs from the grief, I thought I'd feel like an abandoned child my whole life.

I didn't. I felt like an abandoned person.

Sebastian made sure I wouldn't feel like a child for long. Beating and raping my mother wasn't enough, he had to do it to her daughter as well. From the age of eight, I felt like my own body didn't belong to me.

From the age of eight, I was terrified of men. No matter how kind they could be, or how trustworthy. I never trusted them.

It didn't matter if they were adults, like Sebastian, or boys my age, I always feared them. And I fucking hate it. I hate living in fear.

For three months every year, I get a break of Sebastian. He send me to the very camp I am at right now, so that he can leave for business trips, he says.

I don't particularly enjoy this shitty camp. He's been sending me here for the past four years, and each time I manage to get the same cabin.

It's different this year though. Usually, I am lucky enough to be alone all summer. I don't join group activities and spend my days by the small lake, reading, writing or drawing.

I still do all of these things, but I am no longer alone in my cabin. When I was told I was going to have a roommate I wanted to break shit. I was great alone and didn't need someone to barge into my life.

The moment they told me it was a boy, I had a panic attack. I automatically thought the worse. He was going to be like Sebastian. It didn't matter that they told me he was my age, I was scared.

But when I met him, it just felt right.

Romeo is probably sleeping right now. He is by far the prettiest guy I have ever seen. I don't think boys like being called pretty but I don't care, he is. He has pretty blue eyes with dark blonde hair. He has a few freckles scattered around and a beauty mark on his chin.