I live my life in fear of permanence
Justifying every action with a near-ending warranty
yet I walk this long winding road
with no end in sight.I want to inject tattoo ink into my veins
to evade my being from this existential dread
but the thought of a crippled patchwork coat
clinging limply to a hook
is far too much to handleI want to drink my liver out of existence
and smoke my lungs into oblivion
because my contract is almost up on my accord
and I haven't many tomorrows left.And I will sit back and watch this education of mine
burst into flames before me
as I do everything else in my life;
my friends,
my family,
my body,
myself.
I allow myself to become the monster I so fear,
because I have no tomorrows left.but I exploit this fucking comfort
until I suck its soul dry
and there is no meat left on its weak bones,
forgetting that my existence is immortal and
I have infinite days left.{ but what do I do when I am
finally forced to wake up? }
YOU ARE READING
words i never said
Poetrythe thoughts i never got to (and probably never will) say to you. an outlet.