The Misfits and Outcasts {Andy Biersack x Reader}

Dying? - Ch. 10

Andy and I have been together for about 1 day now.

I sat on the couch next to Andy. Andy had his arm around me as I rested on his shoulder. It seemed like most of the time we were either on the couch or hanging out in my room. This time felt different though. It felt free because I knew I didn't need to hide anything anymore. He'd already seen the worst of me and the best of me. 

"Andy?" He looked at me. Before, I would admire his beauty but now I was star struck by him every time. 

"I'm glad we're together. This feels right", I said smiling. This moment was so perfect.  

 "Yah I know. I'm awesome", he said chuckling as I hit him in the chest. I then playfully pushed him and got off of him. 

 "Way to ruin the moment stupid", I say laughing. 

"Haha, I'm sorry babe", he said as he pulled me into him and kissed me. This kiss felt different. I knew I wouldn't have to push him away or build my walls up. It was times like these where I remembered how hard and tiring it was to always have my guard up, to keep denying my feelings and to always keep away from love. Now I could just let my feelings run wild and accept them. I could let myself love again, I think. He pulled away as I had the biggest smile on my face. 

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 Andy and I have been together for 3 days.

I woke up to the sound of music playing. I heard Andy singing unfamiliar lyrics so I sneak over to the living room and listen to what he's playing. It was an unfamiliar song that I've never heard of. He finished the song and I came out from hiding.

"...Love you lost, you never held on", sang. He strung a few more chords on the guitar before finishing.

"What song is that?" He turned around surprised. I must've caught him off guard.

"U-um it's nothing."

"How could it be nothing? What's the name of the song? Who sang it?" Andy was acting wierd but I ignored it.

"It's called Knives and Pens and I wrote it", he mumbled so I wouldn't hear him but I did.

"Knives and Pens? You wrote it?! Let me see!" He looked shy about his song but my curiosity was too high and I wanted to see.He sighed handed me a sheet of paper with some chords and lyrics. I read through the lyrics. It wasn't the happiest song in the world; it was more of a deep personal song.

"You wrote this?"

"Yup."

"From experience?"

"Yup." He wasn't his usual cocky self. He must've been really shy about his songs so I quickly changed the subject.

"How long have you been songwriting?" Andy told me about his band after that. It took a bit of persistence but sooner or later I got him to spill the beans. He didn't go on about it for too long though. He just said that it was a band he formed about 3 or 2 years ago and they had just gotten a record deal.

"How have I never heard about this until now?!" I said smiling. 

"I don't like to brag", he said shrugging. I then laughed so hard at this. 

"You... YOU don't like to brag?! That's hilarious", I said giggling along with him. 

"You wanna go and do something fun?" I was surprised at his question. I wasn't surprised at the fact that he wanted to go do something with me, the timing was just a bit odd. He must've really wanted to change the subject.

"Um... sure", I replied. I didn't have anything to do anyways os why not? 

"There's an amusement park at Jefferson street." 

"Ok... Wait, like right now?!"

"Well yah right now. Duh... Stupid", he said chuckling. I punched him in the arm and then went to get dressed. I put on a hoodie, some black jeans and a leather jacket before slipping on some vans. I grabbed my purse that already had everything I needed in it since I almost never take anything out of it. I quickly put my hair in a ponytail and didn't even bother with make-up. My skin wasn't that bad anyways so I just put on some chapstick.

"How long are you gonna take?"

"Jeez, ever heard of a thing called patience?" I giggled as I exited the apartment with Andy behind me. 

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Andy I have been together for 5 days now.

Andy hasn't been leaving as often anymore. Usually he won't come for a day or so but he'll usually show back up again. He's been here more than usual as if he didn't want to leave. He tried to keep me awake at night as well by asking me to stay up just a bit longer. Sometimes he'd even sleep over but he never slept over much before. It was odd but I ignored since it probably didn't even mean much.

I was also not getting as many flash backs any more. I thought that once I was with Andy, I would get them like crazy and be thinking of Jake all the time. I thought the memories would come flooding back but they didn't. Andy was much different from Jake, I could see that now. The therapist must've been right about spilling my story to someone.

"Hey there's a convention at 5 today. Wanna go?" That's another thing I forgot to mention; he's been asking me to go places more often. Maybe he's really into this relationship and he wants to spend time with me. I'm not complaining though, Jake was the exact opposite. Jake always found ways to get out of things but he would if he had to. I was happy Andy wasn't like Jake, but something was wierd. Knowing Andy, he wouldn't rush to do everything. Andy would rather stay at home, chill and eat pizza. Maybe I was wrong?

"Sure. Where is it?" He looked at his phone to read the address.

"Sun City." Sun City was about 40 miles away. It would take atleast half an hour to get there.

"Sun City", I laughed. He couldn't have been serious, right?

"What's up with all the sudden plans?", I asked him.

"Do you want to go or not", he laughed avoiding the question. I decided to go anyways since I, again, didn't have anything to do. I put on some ripped black jeans, band t-shirt and quickly put my hair in a side braid. Andy was lucky I didn't take to long to get ready.

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I wondered why Andy suddenly wanted to do everything all at once. Usually he'd leave and come back without saying much. It was as if he was just crossing things off his bucket list. Yesterday, he asked if I wanted to go parachuting! It was 12 am when he asked me that. Something was odd about him and I wanted to know. Why did he want to spend so much time with me all of a sudden? He's been cramming every activity he can into this week for some reason. Is Andy dying or something? No, he isn't. That's a dumb idea. If he isn't dying, which he isn't, why would he suddenly want to be doing everything with me?