Is this really love? -sinja

your arms - my safe place

In the early morning, I was woken up by a bad headache.
I rubbed my forehead wearily, the alcohol really was not a good idea, even if not drinking very much at all.
I sat up and yawned, collecting my blurry thoughts.
Through sleepy eyes, I looked towards the window of my room.
It was still dark outside. 
Normally I indeed woke up early.
I had to, whether I wanted to or not, but this time, It was too early even for my habits.
Probably, thanks to the the pain that tormented my head, because of being too stressed out the last few days.
I got up quickly to put on my robe.
With a burning candle in hand, that lit up the room a bit, I left.
Maybe a little walk would help me?
Just me and my thoughts.
I closed my eyes and sighed.
A new day's work would start in a couple of hours, at least then I would be distracted.

Arrived outside, my eyes wandered to the night sky.
Enjoying a deep breath of the fresh, cold air - i had to think about how peaceful our people could live here in Sindria and that all thanks to Sinbad.
My lips formed a slight smile.
If I only could have this peace myself, only a bit more often.

"You can not sleep either huh, Jafar?"

Instantly I turned around, but I did not even had to.
How well I knew, whom that calm, pleasant voice belonged to.
Despite the darkness, I could see my king clearly infront of me, thanks to the faint candlelight.
"Sin..."
I spoke softly while he slowly approached me.

Then he stopped in front of me, close enough, that I could have reached out for him, whenever I wanted to.
But my arms stayed hidden by my sleeves.
"Why are you up so late?"
I asked with a reproachful and at the same time curious undertone.

"Could ask you the same thing"
He chuckled at me, then he exhaled.
"Do your sleep problems bother you that much?"
With a worried look on his face, the purple haired male waited patiently for my answer.

I hesitated, avoiding his gaze, then i nodded.
It was one of those moments, I wanted to open up to him, wanted to show weakness, but I was not allowed to.
As a child, I always could tell him about nightmares or worries but now I was no longer a child anymore.
I had responsibilities!
My ridiculous little problems were nothing compared to to the burden Sinbad had to carry.

"You overwork yourself, I tell you that too often Ja'far ... But that is not all, something else is also bothering you.
I noticed that, i know you long enough. Do you mind to tell me?"
Sin spoke calmly, yet, I could recognize the seriousness on his face.

"No...you are wrong Sin."
Nervously, i fumbled with my sleeves.
Pull yourself together!

"Is that so?"
The man in front of me took a step towards me, what made me swallow.
Out of sudden he began to pull at my clothes.
"That looks completely messy, you usually care more about order"

I backed away embarrassed.
"Stop that, I can do that myself"
Glaring at him, i put my arms around me.

"So, you are really not feeling well..."
Sinbad smiled nervous.

"I was just half asleep and anyway, I did not expected to meet you here!"
I responded grumbling.

Sinbad laughed.
"Okay okay! I am not judging you but..."
Sinbad's face became serious again, now he was looking me straight into the eyes.
"Since when are you hiding things from me? That's new to me..."

For a few heartbeats I was speechless, just thinking about what to reply while trying to endure my king's stern gaze but failed and mumbled;
"You're might be right Sin..."
I sighed.
"But I do not even know myself, what is going on with me right now."

"Alright"
The high king of the seven seas put suddenly but gently an arm around my body, which completely startled me.
"This night, I will make an exception, tonight you will sleep in my bed"