freewrites; notes of the present

its getting a bit much

I'm getting too involved in business not concerning me
i think
I'm talking too much
when I should be listening
i don't know...
i feel myself investing a bit too much
so much that I can't tell if it's too much or not
i think I need to be quiet for now
I've talked too much
i think I've talked too much
ahh
it's this feeling again
i come back here once more I see
the feeling of crossing a line that shouldn't be crossed
the feeling of leaping too far ahead before looking
I can't explain it well
but it always leaves me feeling like I'm a bad person
followed by self doubt
i don't know
i shouldn't care this much
it's a double edge sword
but which side will it stab first