I Don't Want To Feel Better- [Glamrock FreddyxGlamrock BonniexMonty]

Chapter 42 Letting it all out

Monty had came out of the hospital and they were now making their way to the next's shows venue. They were in the car with Freddy and Bonnie, the two of them on the front has the rabbit drove.

Freddy: I think you owe me something Monty.

Monty: Fuck off, you're not innocent on this.- they said from the back seat.

Bonnie: How about we calm down? Take a deep breath and start over.

Freddy and Monty: No.- they said at the same time.

Bonnie: At least you don't disagree on everything...- he muttered to himself has the other went back to silence.

The car ride being mostly in silence, until the vocalist and the younger decided to talk shit about each other to Bonnie.

Monty: Bon, amor, diz ao Freddy que eu adoro mesmo quando alguém ignora me.(Bon, love, tell Freddy that I really love when someone ignores me)

Bonnie: C'mon Monty, I'm not fucking doing that!

Freddy: What did they said?

Bonnie: Believe me, you don't want to know.

Freddy: Alright then, Bonnie, tell them I hate when someone just invalidates all of my life struggle's!- the rabbit sighed before speaking again.

Bonnie: Please you two don't put me on the spot...

But they did.They continuously kept on talking badly about each other has the trip went. Once they got to camp, Bonnie took off his seatbelt and without saying another word just left the car. He then moved over to where the girls and Gregory were seating, has they were trying to start a fire while the sun was still up.

Bonnie: Kill me please.- he said has he sat besides Chica.

Chica: Why?

Bonnie: I'm sick of hearing my boyfriend's argue.

Gregory:About what?

Bonnie: Monty's relapse and the "little" conversation they had after that. They don't even talk to each other they were just using me has a middle man and it's hella frustrating.

Chica: Can't you make them see the truth?

Bonnie: Those two? Nah, don't even try, one's more stubborn then the other it's almost impossible to reason with them.

Roxy: I have an idea but believe me, they won't like it.

Bonnie: Please tell me, I'm sick of arguments.

Roxy:Hey, it's a last resort thing, are you sure? Cuz this could very much make things worse.

Bonnie: I'm willing to try anything.

Roxy: Alright then...

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It was the next morning and things where far from ok. For that reason, once they got in the car Bonnie decided to execute his plan.

Bonnie: Oh shit I almost forgot something!- he said has he went outside the car, closing the door before locking the car.

Monty: Bon, why are you locking the car?

Bonnie: I'm done with y'all arguing! So I'm locking you two in there and if I come back in two hours and you haven't solved your shit I'm breaking up with you! Both of you! I can't live with you two talking shit to me all the time alright?! It's been TWO god dam days and I'm already sick of this! Talk to each other,holy shit! Act like adults!... There's water in the car and food if you need it, call me if either you've solved your shit  OR if you fucking dying!- he said before storming off and leaving both of them in the car to themselves.

Monty: Great. Just great. Thanks to your stubborn ass we're going to lose Bon.

Freddy: ME?!Please! It's cuz you won't fucking apologize to me that we are in this mess.

Monty: It's always about you isn't it?! Tell me. How did you manage to turn your actions about MY RELAPSE, MY OVERDOSE, MY FUCKING ISSUES ABOUT YOU?! YOU'RE NOT THE ONE THAT HAS TO DEAL WITH ALL THIS SERIOUS SHIT!! SO WHY ARE YOU THE LITTLE POOR THING?!

Freddy:I deal with serious things everyday just so you know!!!

Monty: Oh like what?! Taking care of your kid?! Which night I add you're doing a fucking terrible job with!- they blurred out in his angry state, not really meaning it, but deeply offending the other.

Freddy:Even if he is important, no. I'm mentioning more important stuff!!

Monty: Well whatever it is it ain't has bad has me. You're not dealing with life or death situation's!!

Freddy:YES I AM! I WAKE UP EVERYDAY PRETENDING I DON'T HAVE ISSUES, PRETENDING EVERYTHING'S FINE, PRETENDING I'M NOT FUCKING SUICIDAL SO MY FUCKING KID HAS EVERYTHING GOOD HE CAN HAVE! AND YOU DO THIS! YOU PRETEND THERE ISN'T A PROBLEM! AND YOU DON'T EVEN FUCKING ASK IF IM FINE! NO ONE DOES!! I'M BY MYSELF IN THIS AND YOU INVALIDATING MY FEELINGS AND STRUGGLES JUST FUCKING HURTS CUZ I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST YOU!!-the vocalist let out in tears, bringing the other back to reality and pulling out of their annoyed state.

Monty: I- Freddy are you ok?!- they asked putting a hand on the other.

Freddy: Don't pretend you care. You don't!!- they said looking away from the other.

Monty: Freddy I'm sorry. I shouldn't ever said that stuff. I was just acting like a douche. I'm so sorry.

Freddy: I'm sorry I went cold shoulder on you suddenly. It's just... You reminded me so much of my ex... Specially in the night I left him for dead...

Monty: What you mean?

Freddy: He was overdosing and all I could do was run away. I ran away with Gregory and I never looked back. He died. I left him to die. And I know I shouldn't be feeling bad by it, and I never have until I saw you...- he said holding his tears- I guess it just hit me that I killed him.

Monty: You rather had stayed and being you the dead one? Cuz Freddy you just did what you needed to survive. I don't know what he done to you but it really doesn't matter, you did what you could for you and your son... Sorry I said that you aren't raising him properly I know you are, he's turning out a good kid... Like his dad.

Freddy: Thanks... That means a lot...- he said before hesitating.

Monty: You can tell me anything Freddy. I'm here for you. Whatever it is you can tell me.- they added putting a hand on his back.

Freddy: It's been hard for me the last couple of weeks... I've been so nervous I can't eat... Then when I do eat it's to much.... And I've felt so alone cuz I can't really tell anyone about this stuff and some of the worse stuff...

Monty: What's the worse stuff?

Freddy: The nightmares. The nightmare's I have where everything bad is happening again.

Monty: I get you. I totally get you... There's no way I could do to make them go away, but I can be there for you. Even if it's just to make a stupid joke to cheer you up.

Freddy: Thanks Monty... I really appreciate it.

Monty: It's nothing, love.

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Much love!!

-MissevilXD