Daily Brain Drains

#23

I'm in the process of slowly coming to terms with the fact that some people were meant to stay alone.

I'm not someone who others can truly connect to. I can match someone else's energy, yes, but it doesn't count as something significant.

No matter how hard I try and how much of myself I compromise, I will always fall short of even the prospect of a friend. I can fill the silence, but that's all I've ever been good for.

I'm not trying to diss the friendships I've made or the people that I've interacted with, but I'm too tired to try and convince myself otherwise for the umpteenth time. I've exhausted myself from trying not to drown in conversations I'm too stupid or uninformed to partake in. But this doesn't mean that I'll cease doing my part as...whatever I am.

So if you're reading this, please...don't give me any more hope. It's too fickle of a wonderful thing that's far outside the premises of what I deserve.