ON MY KNEES

There's a lot I want to say.
I'm sorry is the gist of it.
I don't know where to start,
but I'm at fault, I admit.

I really want to hold you
and whisper my apology to you.
But, you're angry and hurt,
'cause this act by me is new.

I'm kneeling in front of you.
I wish I could kiss your hand.
I ain't allowed to touch you anymore,
Your forgiveness is important, please understand?

You still nod and shake your head in answer.
Sometimes speak up a few words.
But the way I feel punished right now
is like one cage containing a hundred birds.

It feels suffocating to be your criminal.
You told me to go away then
but it's killing me not to be forgiven by you
I want to breathe again, but when?

You had control over my breaths
and now you've freed me.
Being independent of you, my darling,
is restrictive to the ultimate degree.

I accept your every punishment
just please talk to me, I plead.
I'll go through it with all my heart.
But the confirmation for its end is what I need.

Tell me how can I make things better.
Let me know how can I apologise.
Don't say I don't need to do anything.
I can feel your hurt, so what if it doesn't rise.

I've explained the whole scenario to you.
You'll realise that it's your misunderstanding.
I'm not at fault, please believe.
Until then, I'm on my knees, not standing.

You've always been precious to me.
You've known this since the start.
I can wait for your forgiveness till eternity
'cause I know it lies at the core of your heart.

You don't give second chances.
Me, out of everyone, knew that.
What happened wasn't in my control,
Situations got worse while destiny just sat.

I've trusted you even when I didn't know why.
You do too, and it's still intact, I swear.
You believe I've broken your trust.
But I haven't; 'cause I really do care.

I know you question yourself for caring for me.
You told me that I don't mean anything now.
I understand the level of your hurt,
but, I want to keep apologising, please allow?

I'll remain on my knees until you forgive me.
I'll wait for your hand to be kissed by my lips.
I'll keep urging for your forgiveness,
even if the universe flips.

Someday you'll want to forgive me.
I'll get up on my feet that day.
Either forgive me or kill me by your hands
for neither am I stopping nor will I go away.

~Miss V