i'm not gonna keep doing pov switches so from now on it's more than likely seylani unless stated otherwise!
- it's been a 2 month time jump
it's the last month of school and ring dance/junior prom is tonight. I had a date but ended up realizing i wanted to go with Bianca and not Aaliyah. You know I had to skip school in order to be 100% ready and glammed up bc we know damn well girls need at least 3 hours of prep before events. "are you excited for tonight?!" Blaine, my hairdresser, asks as she is straightening my hair. i sorta just shrug. "i mean i guess you could say that" she squints at me through the mirror "sorta? it's supposed to be one on the most magical nights of your life. besides like senior prom and your wedding and shit like that" she chuckles while un-pinning another chunk of my hair to start straightening it. "for some reason i just don't feel...magical?" i chuckled at my use of the word magical. "i don't know i just wish something about it was different...but anyways i don't wanna talk about it anymore." she looks at me through the mirror and scrunches her face but lets it go while i take a sip of my water. My anxiety about school and relationships has been off the fucking charts and ring dance is a mix of both so it's the last thing i want to focus on right now.
2 hours later
my hair is done and i'm currently getting my nails done. I want y'all to know, i would never skip a whole day of the most stressful school year of my life just for shits and giggles to get ready for a dance i'm not even sure i wanna be at. Today is like a universal skip day for upperclassmen at my school, so why wouldn't i utilize it? I have one hand on the nail table and my other is scrolling through my instagram until bianca texts me. I look at it and read it but i don't open it. don't y'all love that feature where you can hold the message down but not open it? I decide against responding until my nails are done, 1 to leave her on delivered seems like some sort of accomplishment, and 2 i just don't know how to respond to anything she says.
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Bianca
heeey, did you have a date for tn??
no, im going by myself
Bianca
oh if that's what you wanna do 🤷🏽♀️ but i do want to go with you so if the offer is open???
delivered
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i'm home now, getting dressed because that's all that's left of my getting ready process, its 6:45pm and the dance starts at 7. it takes 15 minutes to get to the school, but im not leaving my house until 7:15(ish) so i can be fashionably late and really get the party started. Im struggling real bad to get this dress zipped and then my doorbell rings who the fuck. I know it isn't Sierra but if it was, she wouldn't have even knocked. That girl basically lives here and has a key code. I yell for my brother to get it and then i hear someone walk up the stairs. when i tell y'all my face scrunched up so hard. "can i come in?" an extremely familiar voice sounds. I'm half naked still with nothing but my strapless bra and nike pros on but i tell her yes anyways. In walks Bianca and she looks too good. Face beat, hair done, but her dress isn't on. I just look at her with doe eyes because i've never seen her to this degree and paid attention to detail. "are you gonna let me get dressed or you gonna keep staring?" she says while plopping on my bed. did i tell y'all she came out & we've been off and on since that night a few months ago? In rebuttal, i say "you can get dressed while i stare" as i shrug my shoulders and she literally starts undressing in front of me not like i haven't seen it anyways. i turn to my closet to grab my dress off of its hanger and attempt to take it out of its dust bag thingy. "when you're done can you help me get my dress out?" I ask bianca while she's fixing the fit in her almost navy blue dress. i've never seen her in a dress in my entire life so this is mind boggling. We get ready and leave the house at around 7:30.
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Ring dance ended like 2 hours ago and now we're at a hotel by the venue the dance was at. My brother & Kiara are in a room in the same hallway and Sierra is passed out on the couch of our room. I look at bianca because i feel her eyes burning into me. "what?" i ask once we make eye contact. "you're so pretty" she says while scooting closer to me on the edge of the bed. i look into her eyes and then scan her face going to find some type of emotion besides desire...i couldn't. she wraps her arms around me and lays us down "i don't want us to just be friends with benefits" she says with her head on my chest. "who said that??" i ask lifting my head up and looking at her. "nobody....you know what never mind" i slither from under her and sit up "no what do you mean bianca?" she stands up like she's about to get defensive "i know how you get. you have commitment issues so you fuck and then you leave. you did it to aaliyah WITH ME so who's to say you won't do it to me with someone else?" i look at her and stand up too "i wasn't scared of being in a relationship with aaliyah. i needed to get over you so i thought messing with her would help. i'm not a cheater or a horrible person i've wanted you for so long bianca" i say so calmly that it's kinda weird. she shakes her head and sits back down "i should've never said anything cus you're not understanding what the fuck i'm saying seylani." Now i'm getting defensive because what the fuck is she talking about- "Bianca what the fuck are you even saying? Like i'm trying to understand but your shit isn't adding up. I KNOW and get where you're coming from but clearly i WANT to be with you. we aren't just fucking and you know that." she looks at me and nods without saying anything. "i'm going to get ice" i say putting on my slides and grabbing the ice bucket "i'll go with you then cus why are you walking out like we just fought" bianca says sliding on her crocs. i nod my head and we get ice the come back and lay down. Bianca starts to talk "i'm sorry for starting an unnecessary argument." i look at her and pull her closer to me "it wasn't unnecessary. you wanted me to understand how i felt and i do and i'll show you that i do". she nods and starts to doze off until we both eventually fall asleep.
