Forbidden love

17

❄️chapter 17:issues❄️
Satoru's pov:
IF THERE'S ANYTHING I HATE IN THIS WORLD IT WILL probably be jealousy. I could never understand it and I've never tried to understand it. Never felt it, never had it in me, because I've always got what I wanted.

But that day..that day changed my perspectives on jealousy. It was the summer before my third year in Jujutsu Tech. Me, Suguru and Shoko were planning to go to the beach. We also invited Nanami, who said he'll bring y/n with him. I didn't care much about her back then, I didn't really notice her nor her accomplishments, because I used to think he's just like him.

I even remember complaining to Suguru all night, that Toji's daughter has to join. Don't worry, he said with a smile, I'm sure y/n is nothing like her father. You can see it in her face. But back then..I didn't even look at her face. For God's sake-she was a child.

That day..when I saw y/n I noticed how strangely different, but the same as him she was from her father. She had the same smile and pose like him, she was radiating the same energy he has, but at the same time her face and eyes were kinder and more human than his. It was incredible.

Let's go back to the moment I felt jealousy for the first time. That day at the beach all of us first years spent more time with y/n for the first time and it seemed like she was bonding with everyone..except me. Beach volleyball was our favourite activity, so when I saw her playing with Suguru and smiling with him..this weird feeling inside my chest appeared.

It felt like an ice cube on my heart and it made it colder and colder. My heartbeat was slow and my palms were sweaty. Y/n was smiling so bright, when Suguru spoke to her..I tried to throw a joke, but she just giggled. It was unusual and..weird for me to not get the girl as I always do. This time Suguru was outshining me and as much as I tried to be happy for him, it made me angry. Really angry.

Right now, in present day, I am wearing a ring on my ring finger the same kind as y/n's, which means I am married to her. We have a child together, that looks exactly like me, we named his together. We live under the same roof, we cook together and we have sex regularly. But why am I not satisfied with it?

At least I didn't lie to her, that I liked her from the start

you don't deserve her even a bit, you were sleeping around with other women and you never noticed her till she got pretty. You're egotistical idiot, Satoru.

I hope one day you'll appreciate what you have, cause right now you're too immature to realise it

It's not true. I appreciate y/n and everything she got through for me..for us. But why do I feel like I've messed up? I turn back, my wife's pale face in front of me. I turn front, I see my best friend looking at me with disposal.

"Tell me, Satoru", Suguru finally spoke and his eyes didn't move away from me for a moment, he was fixed on my face, "do you really love her or you wanted her, because there was this possibility of me..having her?".

I'm trying to hold my wife in my hands, so she won't hit the ground after passing out in my hands. At the same time Suguru's question is digging deeper into my mind. Did I really had feelings for y/n all this time? Then the image of her smiling with Suguru and that was the moment I realised..he is right.

I've never wanted to be with y/n, because I loved her. I couldn't even give her a proper answer why I wanna marry her immediately. I just wanted her to like me, but not because I like her back. When she told me she doesn't feel the same way as before I knew she was lying, but it triggered me.

"You didn't want me to have her, plus..you wanted to show Toji, that you're the superior, congratulations-you made it", Suguru laughed at me and started clapping with his hands, then he came closer to me and put his hand on y/n's forehead, "you knew she liked you..but you chose to ignore it then. Now, you have a child, that's going to suffer and a wife, who's probably going to hate you for the rest of your life. You don't have a best friend, but at least you won. You officially have all the women in our city. And Toji doesn't want to kill you anymore, how does it feel?".

"Shut up!", I grabbed his hand and pushed it away from y/n's face. Suguru looked at me and made a step back, "I have a responsibility, I am the father of her child and I'll stick by her side no matter, if she hates me or not. And, if you like to know..I don't regret it, because y/n is the best thing in my life. I like it".

"What a plot twist it was, don't you think? I was in love and you were supposed to be by my side, but you weren't. How can I expect you to be by her side? Don't make me laugh".

"You were my best friend and you still are, but for those words..I have no choice, but to fight you, Suguru", I look straight at him.

"Bring it on, Satoru".

A/n-Summary:
Y/n and Gojo weren't close, when they were in Jujutsu Tech. It seemed like she has more liking to Suguru, who was Gojo's best friend. Back then y/n used to have feelings for Gojo, but she never told him, because she thought she wasn't good enough for him.

Suguru was in love with y/n while Gojo wasn't. He just liked the attention she gave him, but when they grew up y/n stopped giving him this attention and he noticed. He wanted this attention back not because he liked y/n, but because his ego couldn't handle it.

He knew Geto still had feelings for her, but he decided to ignore it and win y/n again just to satisfy his ego. That's why he wanted to marry her so fast, cause he didn't want to lose that opportunity with her. He manipulated y/n into thinking that it's love, but it actually wasn't and he knew what he was doing, but once again it hurts his ego. That's why Geto decided to go away, because he knew what was going on.

I hope this clarifies a little bit.