how do you rid yourself of a lost love?
or at least-
the feeling?
because ive lost my love-
the person.
but i havent yet lost my love-
the feeling.
and this constant back and forth
between wanting to hate him
but still loving him
is driving me mad.
while i have moved on
and accepted things as they are-
and how they will continue to be;
i am still left with this love for him
that wont quite fade away.
i cant rid myself of that warm feeling in my chest that only grew;
when he smiled
and you could clearly see his left dimple -
more prominent than his right.
or when his hair fell messy over his forehead
and tempted me to mess it up more.
his touch almost always left me melting,
i couldnt get enough.
kisses
hugs
hand holding.
i still remember how his hand felt-
in mine.
warm
strong
a little rough
but it fit just right.
his voice and laugh still remain in my mind;
an unplayed record,
gathering dust on the shelf.
and i remember-
how I slowly began to annoy him
when id show affection around his friends,
or when id want to know what was on his mind,
or when i would stare at him for too long.
all i wanted was to admire him.
he was beautiful in my eyes.
i didnt take mind of his imperfections-
i saw the parts of him that made him
him -
the broken bits
the ugly bits
the beautiful bits -
and i loved them all.
but -
in the end we all eventually learn-
that love isnt always enough.
some people-
are not meant to stay for long.
but that feeling of love,
even when you heart is broken
and barely carrying on;
that feeling of love;
it stays.
its been two months now,
since i stopped calling him mine.
so why does my heart
still beat for him
like it still belongs to him?
- alb
•••
this one- was quite the heartache to write. but alas, here i am, still alive, having lived through it all.
what are your stories on past heartbreaks?
lost loves?
getting over the absence of a presence in your life that wasnt take from death- but who walked away?
"Nobody dies a virgin. Life fucks us all."
- Kurt Cobain
posted: july 9th, 2022
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