Destiny

Tears of sadness

POV Marinette:

It has been two days since I had known about my coming death. I'm not afraid, but I'm sad, because I will leave alone who are my whole life. I didn't announce this news to Alya yet. If she is pregnant, then she will be devastated and I won't held to see her sadness. I'm confused, what if I tell her? what will happen? What if I don't tell her? I need to think of everything, I had hurted enough. I have hurted my Adrien and my mother.

The death itself never feared me, but the leaving in pain who mean the world to you is the real pain, all what I wanted is a simple life with who I love, I never asked to be sick, I never asked to be dead, I never asked for death. All what I wanted is Adrien and our future kids under the same roof.

I woke up early, as always wrapped by Adrien's arms. I felt that I will throw up due to the chemotherapy. I left quietly his arms and went to the bathroom then I brushed my teeth and went back to him.

We decided that we start tomorrow our trip. He is checking about the countries that the northern lights would be available, it's not always available all the year, it has a certain period of time. Today he has a chemotherapy and as I promised him, I would get the chemotherapy with him, we started the sickness together, and I will keep going with him. I had wish to say to end our sickness together, but life will end me. life is really unfair.

I let a sigh out and watched the ceiling. I couldn't sleep back after throwing up. I'll just stay warm in Adrien's arms till he wakes up

He wakes up after 45 minutes holding me tighter in his arms.

Adrien: good morning princess

Marinette: good morning kitty. Actually, we need to talk

Adrien: I did something wrong?

Marinette: no, not at all, I need an advice.

I rested my head on his shirtless chest and I toyed with my fingertips on his chest while he played with my hair, I mean my wig

Adrien: what's up Mari?

Marinette: I was thinking. Should I tell Alya and Nino about, hmmm you know my death

He kept quiet, he didn't say any word, I felt a drop on my forehead, I understand that he is crying. I looked at him and found tears in leaking from his eyes. With my thumbs, I wiped his tears and gave him a peck on his lips.

Marinette: you know, why you cry, you gave me more pain than the death itself, a pain that I can't handle. Your eyes shouldn't cry when I'm with you or you will hurt me.

He sits up, wiping his tears with the back of his hand

Adrien: I... I can't, I tried but I can't. you are my life and I love you so much, it's hard.

I sit on his laps and I wrapped my hands around his neck

Marinette: I had the best month in my life, the month that I spent with you. The day I known you, was awesome. I remember what you said. You said that you believe in destiny, you made me believe in destiny too. we are meant to be together, that's our destiny. Even if after three months I won't be here, I would be happy to die in your arms, looking at your eyes, smelling your cologne and holding your hand. I love you

He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me so tight, letting his tears out of his eyes, crying.

Adrien: I love you more, I love you more than anything in this world

Marinette: I said no tears

Adrien (while wiping his tears): sorry, but about Alya, I think you should tell her. don't forget that we will travel and won't be here, so you need to tell her everything.