If Yesterday Could Disappear

Chapter 28

Unconditionally.

I looked around and frowned seeing myself on a familliar setting. Madaming tao ang nakapalibot sa akin at naghihiyawan habang nanonood ng karera.

A Race...

I panicked and watched the scene infront of me repeat again. The same patterns of events that occured before my father, died.

"N-no.." Sinubukan kong takpan ang mga mata ko ngunit kitang kita ko ang malinaw na pagdausdos ng daddy ko sa gilid at pagpatuloy sa kaniyang karera. I tried to cover my ears to stop hearing people around me and the sound of motors crashing to one another, but it won't stop.

I'm sure that this nightmare already left my mind for a few months. I'm sure that I was finnally starting to forget about it! Why is it happening again?!

Bakit ka pa bumalik?

"AHHHHH!! IT'S GONNA EXPLODE!" The women beside me yelled and the image of my father struggling on the side came to me. A young little girl started running towards him, with tears in her eyes and screams that never left her mouth.

My dad reached his hands towards her but he never got to touch her, nor hug her one last time. The vehicle beside him exploded, and from then on the girl died with him.

"NO!!" I cried watching my younger self struggling to be near her father, with my heart aching, wanting it to stop.

"It's your fault!"

Natigilan ako ng humarap ito sa akin at bigla akong ituro, punong puno ng galit sa kaniyang mga mata. I shookt my head at her and tried to approach her but the people gathering around us caught my attention.

Masama ang ngiti ng mga ito sa akin at lahat sila ay tinuro ako. I could feel their rage and its making me uneasy and guilty.

What did I even do?

"IT'S YOUR FAULT!"

Napabangon ako sa higaan ko at napahinga ng malalim. My heart is beating like crazy. Napasabunot ako sa buhok ko at napahagulgol habang inisip ang masamang panaginip ko.

But a hand pulled me closer and hugged me, causing me to cry harder and to bury my face on his neck knowing that It's Aiden by his perfume and his gentle touch.

"It's okay. It's just a nightmare." He assured me while patting my back gently.

"I am trying to forget the pain, I was in rehab for 5 years— yet up until now, the wound was never healed, And It's haunting me over and over again!" I cried.

It is just a nightmare, but It's making me go insane, It's making me lose my mind.

Kumalas sa yakap si Aiden at hinawakan ang magkabilang pisngi ko tsaka ako binigyan ng isang matamis na ngiti.

"It's okay baby, you'll get through this." Hinalikan niya ang aking noo at tinulungan akong ayusin ang magulong buhok ko. He combed it using his long fingers then tied it with one of my ponytail.

"Want some milk?"

I nodded at him. Tumayo s'ya sa tabi ko at naglakad papunta sa kusina na ko, suot suot ang pajama na binili pa naming dalawa sa mall noong nakaraan. I sighed,