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4.For mny years weve been all alone

tw: Badly written. With alot of um.. wrong written words.

I'd could be so easy to forget they're pian but what dose that help them in the end? Nothing. exactly nothing.

That would just leave them feeling more alone then ever, and feeling bad for himselve isnt really what he wanted to do when another was feeling bad aswell, so he stayed just for a little longer, just for the presence of another wich was confusing considering he often liked beeing alone, maby it was just the people that he didnt like that made him feel better without they're company?

It Made no sense for him to try and sound Smart, tho that is what he did on paper to atleast have somthing that he didnt Lack the skill of, like the many thing he did wich was many.

Most of the time he didnt eaven know what to think, let alone what to write, sometimes it just came to him, other Times not so mutch.

Ugh, feelings there was mutch to understand about them that he couldn't.

Whatever. I give up..

Theres nothing to write anyways, as if i had somthig to confess, or anything at all useful in my stupid brain that only thinks the wrong thing all the time.

There's this feeling that i have somthing to confess, like if i just..if he just writes somthing down he wouldnt stop until all words, all feelings were poured out and soaked into the page that kept him staring longer then time gave of.

I mean it always was easier to give up then to continue trying wasn't it? So he was always giving up rather then fighting as the easy way out?

Or was it cause they were tired. Just so damn tired... and they didnt know why they just wanted to feel.. to feel one thing rather then everything at one suffocating Time.

I mean, he was selfish, so selfish for beeing tired, at lest that what he thought, and so attenton seeking right? Always so seeking of pity from another, always so selfcenterd and stupid and ugly and dumb and just useless.

Somewhere deep down he knows.. he'd rather just feel sad then so many thing he could make out all at once not somthing different every fucking second ..just one thing just maby then, then he could atleast Know what he was feeling, what he felt, and not be so clueless all the time..and so yeah it was fucking annoying to be so powerless.

  Never the less...it is what it is right?..ugh why cant i just.. disapear?..