Rushing Wave of Thoughts

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I just finished reading the fourth book this month. I'm extremely happy that I was able to be back in my reading era. Last month, I wasn't able to read any book and it felt terrible. I always love reading. It was my therapy. Including my headphones and spotify playlists. It was currently 7:35 am in the morning.

I jump out of my bed and went to the bathroom to do some girly stuffs. Pagkatapos, agad ako bumaba para mag agahan, breakfast was already served by my Mom. Again, she was not around, probably busy with her amiga's.

"Finally, peace."

Wala rin kasi ang dalawa kong kapatid, sila kasi yung masyadong maingay rito sa bahay. I took four pandesal and some scramble eggs to partner it. Then, binuksan ko ang isang sachet ng instant coffee na creamywhite, I badly need caffeine in my system, since aalis ako mamaya. I might go to the library, then maybe buy another book. I smiled thinking that. I miss the smell of the library. It brings me so much comfort, not any human being can.

I finished my breakfast quickly then scrolled through my social media accounts for a bit. After, I went back to my room and prepared my outfit to wear. I choose a good old black jeans, graphic white tshirt that says "i like books", then paired it my black sandals. I'm also going to use my fave beige tote bag that I bought from a local shop. After choosing my clothes, naligo muna ako.

Bath, then I also applied some subtle makeup. I grab mg mask and went out of the house. I was just going to walk, since malapit lang ang library dito, mga 10 minutes walk. I opened my umbrella since medyo mainit na masyado, it was just 9:45 in the morning. Until now, hindi parin ako maka adjust sa init ng city life.

I was kinda thirsty, I opened my water bottle and drank a bit of water to hydrate, I was already near. I can feel my lips twitching from happiness.

"My comfort" I mumbled nung nakita ko ang library

I hurriedly ran and went inside. Oh the air condition hits me, finally something cold to ease the hot summer weather. Agad na pinakita  ko ang id and vaccine card. I went to the second floor since nandon lahat ang mga favorite books ko. I sat down hear the window kung saan makikita mo ang napakaganda na view at mga taong naglalakad.

It made me think na each of us has stories to tell and battles to face. I suddenly felt at ease with these thoughts. Lately, I've been feeling sad over minor things, and it  kinda bugging me and made me feel unproductive. That's why I went outside today to feel productive and energized.

Nakakadepress kasi sa room ko lalo na at di ako mag isa doon, magkasama kasi kami ng mga kapatid ko sa iisang room. We are not that rich and not that poor we are just able to full fill our needs and wants but not too much.

I was busy reading a self health book, it's been my favourite book to read, so far. It made me reflect a lot when I read this type of books. I do love writing my favourite quotes in my journal. I was busy reading for 4 hours and di ko namalayan na lunch time na pala. I return the book I was reading since tapos na ako and ordered another self health book and one romance book.

I opened my phone and ordered through FoodPanda, I was not in the mood to cook or go to a restaurant. I went home and changed my clothes. The food I ordered also arrived.

Chicken and rice for lunch, I also ordered fries. I was busy eating and watching Youtube vlogs. I love watching those 'Living Alone Diaries' and 'What I eat in a Week' vlogs. After watching these vlogs I was trying to romanticised my so boring life.

I finished eating and called my friend.

"Hey" I awkwardly said

I was never the loud type of people, I also never call first, if it's not for emergency. She might be shocked and throw a party after this call.

"Omg, is this effin' real, Adi is calling me first for the first time, this should be in the Adi's First Times" malakas na sabi niya

I know she is going to be shocked.

"What made Adi called me ' first' for the first time?" tanong niya

"I was just going to asked you how are you? That's it"

"Wow, bago to ah, tinatanong na din ako kung kamusta na ako haha, may jowa ka ba--" I cut her off immediately

"NO!!" I said, it almost a shout

"Really, but napasigaw, eme lang, di ka naman majoke friend. Ito okay, busy makipagharutan, kaya ikaw humarot ka na din. Para naman may spice yang buhay mo. Kahit for experience lang yan nothing serious, support ako" katyaw niya sa akin

Bad influenced talaga to sa akin.

"Really, I'll rather read books than date boys"

"I'll rather read books than date boys blah blah blah, sinasabi mo lang yan dahil takot ka magcommit" aniya

No, I was never afraid to commit, it's just I was never interested in knowing anyone if its for romantic things.

"Yeah, whatever." pagod ko na sabi

"Basta, kung may makita o makilala ako agad ko na ipakilala sayo. By the way, punta tayo mall bukas, hang out? G?" pag aya nito sa akin

"G" I replied shortly

I hang up and then look at my phone for a few minutes. I don't know how did I managed to call someone, I was always been the type to wait for someone to call me, maybe its a great sign for me to change something.

I went back to my room at nagsimula maglinis dahil medyo makalat, nagkalat kasi yung kapatid ko. Di ko naman yun masabihan dahil baka ako pa ang mapalo ni Mama, masyadong nispoil niya yun, ayun lumaking brat.

I opened my spotify and played some songs to vibe while cleaning. I love listening to musics while cleaning, it made me feel like the main character in every movies or films.

"Yeah, say, "I'm done but I'm still confused" How am I supposed to closed the door when I still needed closure? And I change my mind but it's still on you" I sang while holding my broom

I laughed dahil medyo feel na feel ko yung pagiging singer ko, kahit di naman gaano kaganda yung boses. I continued cleaning for the past hour while listening to my fav musics. It was already 6 pm when my siblings and Mom arrived. We just ordered food since lahat kami pagod. I ordered adobo, garlic rice, and chicken skewers for dinner from a local restaurant.

It was delish. I took at bath and opened my journal to write some things, when I had these sudden thoughts: being introvert is not that bad, they always had these misconceptions that being alone or introvert is sad and depressing but that's not in my case. It feels liberating and energising. We recharged ourselves through being alone. I smiled after these thoughts.

Then, I went to bed a bit early since I'm tired.

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