Hate To Love |Heejaywon|

22. regrets?

its been 7 years that we promise to each other (jay) that we will build a family we wanted and its been a week since that incident 

all this time im not allowed to have a baby, in this world bottom are rarely to get pregnant if you are male and top never pregnant and opposite with females 

isn't that unfair? i wanted a family too

should we adopt? we were thinking about that but its just having your own is different 

as i hears a knock to our bed room and we moved out to our apartment 

"yes love?" i asked as he opened the door and and went to the edge of the bed 

"are you okay?" he is worried i know but i dont want to be worried more 

"yes of course " i answer him and held his hands 

"the boys as going here" he said playing with my wedding ring "really? should we go out?" i asked 

"i-i dont think so love, you still can't walk because of your fall" yes i fell in the stairs because of the weakness of my knee the time i cant have my own baby 

"im fine now, jay, its been a week" i said as he sighed "baby you know you can't even go to the bathroom by yourself" he said but  cross my arms 

"okay fine, lets have a drive" he said smiling at me  as i return his smile and hugged him 

one word, jay is the standard.

i cant you even imagine myself without jay 

jay nodded and went out before he went out he kissed my forehead 

my phone suddenly ring as i opened it its Sunoo my half brother 

"hello? sunoo?..... hey why did you call?.... what?... speak properly sunoo...... jay?.... wae?.... he what?... h-he n-nooo he cant do that...." i said as my tear burst out

"WHY??.... WHEN?.... H-HOW D=DARE HE!!!.. thank you sunoo, bye love you" i said as i got out of the bed

i suddenly lost my balance as i tried to get up without making a noise 

i walked little but little, i opened the door and walked to the stair as soon as i saw him, i wish i never did

"h-how can you d-do this to me jay" he stand up from where he was sitting 

"in my house?" he shake his head "you let her in? how can you cheat on me with me in this situation? " i said as i cry out 

" You took the advantage of me being not able to walk!! " I cried out as he tried to walk to me I rumble walking back away from him

" No.. babe... It's not that, I made a m-mistake" he said holding his hair out of frustration

" He got me pregnant " the girl suddenly say with her bich face

" Get out.... GET OUT!!! " I yelled as I looked at them

" BOTH OF YOU, GET OUT!! I DON'T TO SEE YOUR FVCKING FACE!! " I yelled at both of them as jay attempt to held my hands

" I can't believe you" I said shaking my head as my tears flow down without any gap

" Please.. please love listen to me" I slapped him across his face

" Stop, I don't want to hear your voice, I don't want to see your face, leave" I said

" Okay, but I'm going back here" he said as he drag the girl out

" No.. I can't bare to see you after this, don't ever come back" I said as I walked upstairs

I almost forgot that my knee is hurt, I put his clothes in his luggage and throw it on him I don't care if it's hurt, he hurt me more than I hurt him by hitting him with that thing

"GET OUT!!!!" I scream as the girl rolled her eyes , I want to take out her eyes right now but my good side saying, be good for once this time

Plus she pregnant with JAY

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After 1 year

I moved on with them I never see jay again, Heeseung confess to me 2 months ago and I answer him 1 month ago

He said he is okay with adopting a child since he wants to have a child to so we did

She is ha-eun  6 six years old

We planned to get married soon, we are ready we got a house big as a mansion and playground for ha-eun

We gave her live as much as i can give her, I'm glad that Heeseung help me heal

Jay is still my heart but he is just a memory now, I hope we did across our path now I'm happy

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In this story not all soulmate will last forever, choose what makes you heal and not to be broken forever

There might up and downs but we still have to let go if it's makes us toxic, scared

Don't be blind to the things because we love it, but let ourselves see what we became from

I'm not be love expert, I do not experience the love thing but I know loves makes us blind but don't let ourselves be blind forever

Love ourselves too

If God choose us not to have a child, then don't, don't push or force ourselves let it flow

God will provide

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The end.

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It's done done now, hope you guys enjoy the story, thank you for reading this book

Appreciate ya'all

So this is the end of this book
Next week I will edit what is the wrong grammar and spelling

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