Me and Jackson are going to a family dinner with my family for coopers birthday when we get to the restaurant I see Parker
Paige: hi
Parker: hi
I shed a few tears and she hugs me
Paige: I miss him park
Parker: I miss him to pai
Paige: he was my best friend
Parker: hey it's ok
I let go off her and hug Jackson's side and he kisses my head
Jackson: your ok I love you
Paige: I love you too babe
He kisses my head and then we eat dinner
Treva: so how's it going
Paige: it's going bad mom
Treva: why sweetie
Paige: it's coops birthday and he isn't here why do you think it's going bad
Treva: don't speak to me like that
Paige: I'm sorry I'm just going through a lot
Treva: it's ok sweetie
Jackson puts his hand on my thigh and I smile
Treva: so how's social media
Jackson: Um it's a lot
Paige: yeah it's definitely a lot since people think I betrayed Cooper
Harold: how did you betray him
Paige: they said I never loved him that I was using him to get closer to Jaden
Parker: omg I didn't know people were doing that
Treva: you loved him
Paige: I did and I still do and jaden had a crush on me even before him and coop were friends, it's just people on social media trying to start shit I'm just tired of it
Jackson: yeah they are sending both of threats it's crazy everybody has gone crazy
Paige: especially when they say I need to be with Bryce again or I should date ace or Kristian and when they say that Jackson needs to be with Paige, first of all I can't be with Bryce because Rachel is one of my best friends second of all ace is literally like my brother and kristian definitely has a crush on me but he's like my brother so no
Harold: how is it living at hype
Paige: uh
I look at Jackson
Paige: it's ok IG
Parker: what do you mean
Paige: Um well Paige keeps trying to break me and Jackson up
Parker: how
Paige: she keeps flirting with him had him convinced I was cheating on him with nessa sab and Jaden
Parker: I always said she was a bitch
The waiter comes and we order everything and about 30 minutes later we get our food and eat and talk about Cooper
Paige: it's the big old 21 for coop in heaven
Parker: yeah and he's looking down and is smiling I can already feel it
Paige: you can ask Jackson last night I was just sitting on the bed looking through pictures of me and coop and crying and then I would just stare at the wall and I would talk to myself
Jackson: yeah I felt really bad cause I couldn't help
Paige: I mean he could've helped but I wouldn't let him I wouldn't talk to anyone and I wouldn't eat I would just get up to go pee and shower for like 2 weeks straight
Parker: you can't do that
Paige: he was my brother and my best friend ofc I'm gonna act like that park I was the only person besides josh nessa and sab there for him you wouldn't even change your last name on any of your social medias and now that your gone your acting like your the best big sister in the world you were never there for coop you shut him out when he needed someone the most so dony tell me not to act like thst cause you may have lost your brother but I lost my best friend my brother my angel I lost the person I looked up to I have no body else except for Jackson ness and sab and hype I lost one of my wills to live coop was always there for me when me and Jackson got into arguments and now I have no one for when we get into arguments
Parker: I'm sorry ok I miss Cooper too
Paige: if you really missed him you wouldn't have got with Jaden after he died no one even knew about you until you hung out with nessa one time and she posted you I was there when Cooper first got into drugs I was there for his first overdose and I was there when he died so you can't say you miss Cooper more than me
I just broke down in tears and Jackson comforted me
Paige: I just want to go home
Treva: go home sweetie it's ok
Me and Jackson get up and go home and we both fall asleep after I cry my eyes out
