Little burgalar (Thorin Oakenshield x reader)

Chapter 29. Finally enough

~TA 2945 7 of June~

It has been three years since I returned to Shire with Bilbo. We needed over a year to get all our things back, some of the hobbits gave our things back free willy and from the rest we bought them back (with the gold we got from the troll gave and Erebor). To Bilbo it was easier to go back living in the old style and the other hobbits judge him lesser than me. I hasn't past a day that I wouldn't miss Thorin, Fili, Kili and the others.

I walk to a lady who is selling vegetables. "Look, it's Y/N Baggins, she doesn't belong here" I hear someone say. "Yes, she isn't a real Baggins or even a hobbit" someone else say. "She has always been so weird, going on adventures, talking her mind and behaving not like a young lady what she should be" this time a women say. "How can she wear pants. Her hair is always full of sticks and dirt" a second woman say.

I try to ignore them, but it gets harder everyday not to scream or hit them. "Can I have four carrots, nine potatoes and two tomatoes" I ask the lady. "Here, have a good day" she say giving them to me and I put them in my small basket. As I walk the path back home I hear more judging and criticism, they all say I shouldn't live here or I am a bad influence to younger hobbits. They have done it since I came back and it hurt more than I ever thought.

I open the door to our home calling to my brother. "In the kitchen" he answer. "I brought what you asked" I say giving the vegetables to Bilbo. "Thank you, Y/N" he say smiling knowing it isn't easy to me be out. "Bilbo, I am not sure if I can live like this any longer. I can't go outside without someone judging me or bringing their kids inside. I hate it here, no one talks to me and they say I don't belong here, and worst is I start to believe them" I say and start crying in the end.

"Oh, come here" Bilbo say opening his arms and hugging me while I cry in his shoulder. "I know it's hard to you and if I could do anything to help you I would. And you always belong in Bagend and this will always be your home what ever happen" he continue. I believe him from all of my heart.

After I calmed down I say "Bilbo, do you remember when Thorin said that I could live in Erebor if I wanted. I have been thinking about it for months and I know I must leave you here and I will miss you every day, but at least I would have there thirteen friends who are there for me. But if you want me to stay then I stay, I can't just leave you hear, this is my home and Erebor ins't" I say not meeting my brothers eyes.

I have been thinking about it really much, but never said anything in fear of hurting Bilbo's feeling. It has been awful without the dwarves and nearly every night I dream about Thorin, sometimes good dreams and sometimes really bad dreams where he dies with Fili and Kili. I feel my breath shorten and a rising panic coming. "Hey, hey Y/N look at me, you are alright. I am not mad. I understand competently why you want to move and I will miss you too, but I don't want to see you hurt here every day after you go out. So if you really want to go then I will support you" Bilbo say hugging me again.

"Are you really sure that I can go. I want to go, but I don't want hurt you Bilbo" I say looking at him. He is smiling truly, but I can still see a bit sadness. "Y/N I am sure as I can, it's better for you there. You have Fili and Kili there to make you smile, Thorin taking care of you and of course the others are too there "Bilbo say. "Okay, I will go tomorrow, but there is a big problem. How I get the word to the eagles in so short time" I ask him.

Just as I ask that we hear a knock from the door. "We didn't invite anyone" we both say at the same time. I walk to the door and open it, behind the door stands Gandalf. "Gandalf, what are you doing here?" I ask him, how can he always come in the perfect time. "I wanted to visit you two while I was passing by" Gandalf answer.

"Y/N, who is it?" Bilbo shout from the kitchen. "It's Gandalf" I shout back. After that he comes and say hello to Gandalf. "Y/N, he can help you to get to Erebor" Bilbo say exited. "What's going on, why you want go to Erebor?" Gandalf ask looking at us. "I don't want to live here anymore, everyone just judge me. I want to move in Erebor" I say more confident every time I say it out loud.

"I will come right back, I will go ask the eagles" Gandalf says and leave. "I think that problem solved it self" Bilbo say laughing. "Indeed. I just wonder how Gandalf was in the right place in the right time" I say smiling truly in a long time. "Y/N, maybe we should back your things ready" Bilbo say smiling and lead me to my room.

In my room we both try to find my stuff that I will mostly need in Erebor and put them into two smaller travel chests and my back bag. Bilbo is collecting my art tools and art in one chest and I am taking some clothes in the other with some jewelry and other little things. As I take clothes out I find my old toys, "Bilbo, should I take them with me?" I ask my brother. "Yes you should, they were your favorites" he say smiling, probably for a memory of me with them.

After we got everything backed we checked the whole house, that there isn't anything that I wanted to have with me. "Y/N, take this" Bilbo say handing me a necklace. "This is mothers necklace" I say wondering it. "Yes, mother gave it to me to keep safe until you are old enough, look inside" my brother say. I look inside it and see a on the other side a picture of mother and father holding me and Bilbo as kids, but the other side is empty.

"Bilbo, why is the other side empty?" I ask my brother curiously. "Mother said that if you go somewhere on an adventure you would always have your family near. And the empty side is when you find your own family or someone important, you can put a imagine in there" he explains.

"Are you two ready with packing already" we hear Gandalf ask as he steps back in. "Yes, I wanted to leave as soon as possible" I tell the wizard. "I think we can leave tomorrow morning" he say looking at us. The rest of the evening goes while we eat supper and talk about old adventures until we decide to go sleeping.

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~TA 2945 8 of June~

The next morning I wake up early and see my brother still sleeping and Gandalf had disappear as usually. I start to make breakfast for all, I make fired eggs, toast and some salad with them. Just when I finish making the food Bilbo walk into the kitchen. "Here is your, I hope you like it" I say handing him a plate. We eat the food in silence, after eating we do the dishes.

"Bilbo are you sure that I can go to Erebor?" I ask worried. "Y/N, believe me I will be alright, even I will not miss that I must always be worried of you" Bilbo say joking in the end. I just laugh and hug him. "Y/N are you ready to go?" Gandalf ask behind us. "I am ready. Bilbo can you believe I am going to Erebor, Erebor" I shout and start jumping around from excitement.

"And here we go again" I can hear Bilbo say to Gandalf laughing. After I jumped around the house for a while I calm down. "Gandalf, how are we going to get my chests out of Shire" I ask. "We can put them on my carriage, I came with them here" he say and start carrying one out and I carry with Bilbo the other. It was easier than I thought to get the chests on the carriage.

"Bye Bilbo, I promise to wist you as often as I can. I will miss you very much every day. I will write to you if I can" I say and hug him, he hugs me back. "I know, I will miss you too. And I promise to answer to you if you write to me" Bilbo say and help me to climb on the carriage. "Bye bye Bilbo" I shout as we start to move.

After a hour we reach the border of Shire. I see one eagle standing in front of us. I watch Gandalf talking to it. "Y/N, come here, climb on the back and hold tight" he say and help me on the back of the eagle. The eagle rise and pick up my chests and starts flying towards Erebor...

I hope you enjoy this chapter!
I'm not sure if I can write a chapter next week, because my school starts and it's all new to me.
I might not post every week, but I try my best, it's because of school and I try to write my other books too. ~R