“Hawakan mo ang kamay ko”
Bianca’s POV
I’m here sa U.S. I think it’s more than 2 weeks na. Masyado na akong nabbored dito sa bahay. Lalo ko lang naalala yung lalaking yun kapag wala akong ginagawa, nakakainis lang. He didn’t deserve me noh. Bat ko pa ba kasi sya naalala. Hay nako mind, please get over that freaking guy.
My thoughts were cut off by the voice of my Grandad.
“Nobody really tells you this but sometimes the healing hurts more than the wound.” Grandad.
Inangat ko yung ulo ko, then tumingin sa kanya.
“Pau, Apo. I know that guy broke your heart, but stop living your life like this. Akala ko pumunta ka dito para hindi mo na sya maalala pero bakit lagi ka parin nakakulong dito sa kwarto? Ganyan ka din nung nasa pinas ka eh.” Grandad.
“How can I stop thinking about him? I’ve loved him with all my heart, pero yun lang yung ibinalik nya sakin. I can’t even think of one reason why he needs to cheat.” Lumapit sakin si Grandad at umupo dito sa bed ko, facing me.
Hinawakan nya yung kamay ko bago sya magsalita. “Sometimes all you have to do is forget what you feel and remember what you deserve.” That somehow woke me up. I know I’m more than this.
“But it still hurts so much.” I said to Grandad while looking at him.
“And sometimes, it takes a heartbreak to shake us awake and help us see that we are worth so much more than we’re settling for.” Grandad.
“You are our Brave and strong little Bianca. So, get out of your bed and get your life back. 3 years is too much for heartbreak my princess. Don’t waste another day for him. He is not worth it.” Grandad said and tumayo na sya and give a kiss on my forehead.
He tapped my shoulder, that’s his signal for me to get up. Then I just watch him hanggang makalabas sya ng room ko.
I took a very very veeerryyy deep breath before getting off my bed.
“Wooooh!”
“Okaaay. This day is no longer for him. This is for me now. I’m gonna bring my life back.” I said to myself.
Tama si grandad, I’m worth so much more than I’m settling for.
I took a shower and bumaba na after. I want to go out today, maybe for a week? San naman kaya ako pupunta?
Hmmm. Bahala na. Basta I want to free my mind first.
We are here sa dining area having our breakfast.
“You look so gorgeous apo.” Grandad said while looking at me. He is smiling very wide. Hehe I missed his smile. Cute ng lolo ko. Gwapo yan parang si Dad.
“I think someone is awake with her nightmares na.” Grandma said and smirked.
“Grandmaaaa…” I said sabay lapit sa kanya.
“I missed you Pau pau.” She said and hugged me. I didn’t know she’s here.
“Kailan ka pa po bumalik?” I asked her.
