Confessions || One Shot Stories

(1.5) Despair

Theme Song: Binhi by Arthur Nery

"She Never Once Told"

Started: 11 Aug 2022, 19:32
Finished: 12 Aug 2022, 8:14

"I want the universe to take away my right to live happily in this world."

I enjoy my college life together with my best friend Nadia.

We created our friendship back when we were both in 4th year college.

Her personality is the exact opposite as mine- she's very talkative while I'm very quiet. She loves to socialize while I prefer to be alone. Nadia is into kpop and kdrama while I'm into anime. She likes spicy food while I am more into sweet foods.

The only similarities we had is we both have depression because losing our favorite person brings us trauma.

Her twin sister died because of bone cancer while my father died because of diabetes.

Everytime we had breakdowns, the only thing we does is to listen of Arthur Nery's song while crying heavily. Later on, we laughed because we just cried.

After our therapy session, we both shared our progress as a teenager who has depression but sometimes we just laughed about the fact that there's no information to share because we're not progressing.

Despite the differences and similarities, no one can change my mind that I feel serene whenever I'm with her.

I can't count on my fingers how many times we sneak from our house just to go to 7/11 to have our heart to heart talk in the middle of the night. Order our favorite comfort food which is ramen using the money of Nadia's parents.

Helping each other to cheat in our exams because we both forgot to study. Sleep over from our house because Nadia had a small fight from his ka m.u.

I admit that Nadia is a magnet from boys' eyes . That's why a lot of guys strike a conversation with me just to get Nadia's number. And as a best friend who wants Nadia to feel worthy and be loved, I also cooperate.

I remembered one time that there's her manliligaw treated us from an expensive restaurant but ended up passing the bill from us because he couldn't afford the food.

We of course took revenge by marking his answers wrong as we checked his test paper.

That guy deserves more punishment other than dumping him and giving him a failed score.

Our friendship flows normally not until we both have feelings for this one boy from the engineering department.

Honestly, I was the one who discovered this wholesome guy but I recently confessed my feelings for him to Nadia, unexpectedly she admitted that she was also attracted by this guy but not deeply.

It was okay for me because Nadia clearly said that it's just a small crush. Because from my point of view, it's more than a crush. I already fell in love with this boy.

I started developing my feelings for him a long time ago.

As a teenager who is an introvert, I really have a hard time getting his attention.

All I can do is to have a glimpse and look at him whenever he passes by our department. Waiting for him at the canteen and being his silent fan.

All I can do is to write his name on the back of my notebook and do the FLAMES thingy. Lastly, imagining fake scenarios with him and daydreaming.