yoshimura son

what am i

I've finished reading the book by ken kaneki And now just laying on my bed looking at my wall with a clear mind even though it feels cloudy.

On my side I put my TV on abit ago to maybe distract me but i didn't know the info it would give me

* the ghoul feeding case that a
Occurred on takada building street..*
The TV was talking about some ghoul case which I didn't care of

*the residents cannot hide their fear that this terror will spread across tokyo*

*joining us today is Dr.ogura an authority on ghouls*
I remember that name hide has one of his book on him about ghouls (somehow that's the only book he reads unlike manga)

*ghouls have no need to consume such large amount of food in such a short period of time*
I don't know why but I was interested by what he was saying for some reason even though it didn't seem to cause me any benefits

*one dead body will sustain them for a month or two what that means is that the increased number or victims were seeing are being consumed for pleasure*

*can't ghouls be satisfied with normal food?* said one of the woman on the talk show

*first of all ghouls derive nourishment from anything other then humans.
That's believed to be because of a unique enzyme they possess.*
What...

*on top of that their tongues work differently than ours do... so food taste revolting to them*

*vegetables taste grassy fish tastes fishy and meat tastes gamy*
I stood up facing the TV shock written all over my face
*but they be hit with a strong sense of nausea afterwards *
When I heard that my brain started to think back when I tried to eat the hospital food and how the vegetables tasted grassy and the meat tasted rotten

'Is it possible that receiving a ghouls organs somehow changed my body "
I thought sweat rolling down my face my body shaking

"I'm overthing things " I think and flop down back on my bed fed up about how I feel

"Grgl"
I turn over on my back And touch my belly
"Sigh I'm getting hungry "
I whisper quietly to myself

I stand up from my bed
"Hungry?"

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In one of kanekis most famous story's a young man turns into a gaint insect

I think to myself while I run to my fridge practically falling on my knees infront of it

"The young man who became an insect
Saw his taste in food change "
I think while I open my fridge with so much force the door could of fallen off

"He no longer eat fresh food he began preferring things like rotten cheese "

I pick up a burger from inside my fridge
Unwrap it

"If my taste of food is changed "
I think to myself while I'm chomping down on the burger
I feel nausea run through my throat when the burger touched my tongue
"Whats the cheese for me?"
I think to myself as I cover my mouth and run to the sink to let out my empty stomach of that disgusting flavor

Later on I'm laying on the floor tears down my face with many emotions circling around me.

Food with bit marks. Only one bit mark in each. Thrown around me.

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I don't know how I got here
Or why I am here.
I know it not safe but I'm still outside walking in the dark.

I don't know what's wrong with me.
'Grgl'
I put an hand over my stomach to try to stop the noise. Or the intense hunger that keeps hitting me.

'Look at all that leg your showing"
What?
I here an old unsettling voice appear in the ally way I'm in that I'm walking straight to.
I look up and see an creepy man. Definitely an perv. Holding an girl to the side of the ally way. Trapping her.

'Let's have a good time"

"Stop.."

That girl... she looks familiar
She's the girl that works at that cafe.

I moved my foot to get closer.
But not to stop what's happing
No something else was pulling me in.
She had soft looking legs
Fat
Slender hips...
I gulp feeling the intense hunger appear again with sweat and tears rolling down my cheeks

"HEY what you looking at, wonna join too"
The old perv noticed me
He was looking me up and down and because of that released the girl
But she didn't move.

"Hey I'm talking to you!"
He walks over and touches my hip
'DONT TOUCH ME'
I internally scream. But not the reasons you would think.

His lustful eyes change the second they look at my face
Turns to shock, horror.

"Whats wrong with your eye?!"
He shouts at me taking a few steps back
I can finally breath now. But a new feeling appears.
Confusion.
'My Eye?'

'YOU FREAK"

BLOOD SPLATTERD ON THE FALL AND HALF HIS HEAD HITS THE FLOOR.
HIS BODY GETS PUSHED TO THE FLOOR.
HIS BLOOD HITS MY CHEEK BUT IM TOO SHOCKED TO CARE

"YOU SICKO' the girl who was getting molested said

"Look what I did I wasn't even hungry.
I'll take an arm at least."
"Even though old man meat taste nasty"
The girl wispers while tearing of his arm like its chicken

She's

"What?"
She notices me looking at her

She raises her arm that holding the arm
Like she giving it to me
"Do you want it?

A GHOUL

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'You don't want this?"

A GHOUL

she looks at me in concern
Why an ghoul concerned

"Arent you gonna eat"
She moves closer

"Why only one of your eye red"
"Wait
Why weren't you eaten?!"
She looks at me with shock and horror stuck in her eyes
Why she acting that way
Shouldn't that be me?

"Huh I thought rize? But your eye?"
She whispers looking confused

At this point my body finally reacted to its instincts
To run
I run
Far away living her in confusion

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"Hey eto how you feeling?
You haven't been showing up to classes
Oh that reminds me
What's his name again?.. oh ken kaneki is doing an signing at the book store by the station. That the author you like right ?
But if you not feeling OK then whatever see ya"

I forgot about ken kaneki book signing

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I go to the building beside the station to see a sign
'Ken kaneki signing now over '
I thought it would take my mind of off things, but it over... of cause, I'll just go home then"

A child
Young man
Woman
Girl
Meat man
Meat
Woman
Meat MEAT MEAT!!!
those thoughts start to take over while I walk the streets
A woman with her boyfriend looking concerned
It too much
I run to the local restroom
Only stopped running when up to the sink where I look up

The tears down my face didn't shock me
No
It was my right eye that did
It looked infected but I knew it was worse then that
The eyeris was red
The outside was completely black

Ghoul eye

Why
"Why me
WHY GOD DAMMIT
" in a fit of anger and frustration I hit my fist on the mirror to get rid of that reflection
The glass broke
An shard cut me on the hand
I remember the pain
And seeing blood but when I looked closer... the cut was gone..

*Omg I haven't wrote in so long and of cause I start again right before exams yay

The first half was written last year so if the last half seems very different and prob more worse then the rest that why

See ya in 10 yrs
Also just noticed got this story is taking forever*