𝐓𝐡𝐞 "𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭" 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥 |𝐏𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐲 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐨𝐧

[Chapter 20]

It's been two weeks since Astoria's party and me and blaise have been distant since then. We avoid hanging out with our friends when one of us is there and we walk past each other without even looking or saying anything.

Like strangers.

It was my fault..it was only my fault and i regret it more than anything.

I didn't just lose a boyfriend but a best friend as well..the one who i trusted with my life and the one who actually cared about me..

My nightmares have been getting worse. They keep coming every night but now i also see Blaise breaking up with me and losing him forever.

I messed up..i really messed up this time.

It feels like i can not love someone without hurting both of us.

I hate it..I truly do..

Daphne is the only one who checks on me after what happened. The boys took Blaise's side of course, "bro code" you know.

As i know Draco and Astoria are dating now.

Daphne: Pansy?

I snapped back into reality and looked at her.

Pansy: yea?

Daphne: are you alright?

Pansy: daphne you've already asked me this today, it's already your third time..

Daphne: I just wanted to make sure that's all.

She said softly sitting next to me in the common room. Don't get me wrong, I liked having daphne be there for me, but sometimes she could get annoying about it as well.

I looked as the door opened, and there he was, walking in.

Not alone. No, he was with,

Daphne: Stephanie??

She said breathlessly in shock. My throat went numb, there was no way. She looked over at us and clearly gulped a bit.

Stephanie: uh- bye Blaise.

She waved to him, he smiled and glanced at me before walking away.

She walked over to us and sat down.

Daphne: can you explain?

Stephanie: oh me and Blaise- we were just walking-

Daphne: walking??

Stephanie: yea we were both heading this way so we ended up walking here together.

I rolled my tongue in cheek.

Pansy: even the closet person can turn out to be a backstabbing bitch. That literally breaks girl code!

Daphne: that was fake as fuck.

Stephanie: okay first off. Pansy and him aren't together anymore and they hardly talk, it's not wrong of me at all.

Pansy: are you that dumb? If you want attention go get it from someone else don't go and fuck around with my ex behind my back.

She rolled her eyes and mumbled something as she walked away. I hugged my knees and looked down.

Daphne: why don't we do something.

Pansy: I'm going to bed.

Daphne: it's barely two?

Pansy: daphne I'm miserable and it's obvious. I don't want to do anything-

She stayed quiet and fiddled with her charms.

Daphne: I'll be in the library if you need me...

She said before walking away. I looked down ashamed before walking out. I was losing myself and I didn't know what to do.

Luna: hello parkinson

I furrowed my eyebrows and turned around to see Luna Lovegood standing there with a smile and some crystals in her hands.

She put her arms out and smiled at me.

Luna: you need one, you're attracting the nargles with your bad energy.

I looked at her and then at her crystals. I moved some around before spotting a tigers eye which I took.

Pansy: this one's pretty..

I admired it. I then put the crystal into my pocket.

Luna: we should go to the forest.

Pansy: are you hearing yourself?

Luna: yep. It'll help heal your aura, it's incredibly horrible right now..

As much as I hated her honesty, it was true.

She put her crystals away and then led me to the forest, before entering she closed her eyes and took a deep breath and led me in.

I walked and walked some more with her till we were in the middle of no where.

There was a small blanket on the floor with treats and little creatures being curious.

Luna: how does it feel?

I examined the place and felt the positive energy.

Pansy: safe.

She took my hands and held them out as she closed her eyes again.

Luna: close your eyes.

I sighed and nodded no.

Pansy: this is stupid-

She then pinched my hands.

Pansy: ow!

I closed my eyes.

Luna: tell me what's wrong?

I bit the inside of my cheek.

Pansy: everything..

Luna: blaise?

I sighed and thought of the night.

Pansy: we broke things off because of a game..

Luna: what led you to playing that game?

Pansy: I was drunk and wanted to play a game with people..?

Luna: no other reason?

Pansy: no..

Luna: okay now tell yourself that you don't need him.

Pansy: what?

Luna: it won't work out Pansy and you know it... tell yourself

I pulled myself away opening my eyes again.

Pansy: I'm leaving.

She shrugged and smiled.

Luna: Im happy you're okay with him moving on.

She said laying back. I furrowed my eyebrows.

Pansy; what?

Luna: stephanie?

I clenched my jaw.

Pansy: they aren't together Luna..

Luna: well they were walking together towards the Slytherin hall and before entering they kissed..

My blood boiled. My bestfriend, betrayed me. I didn't know whether to cry or be mad. I didn't know what to feel at that point.

I looked away and began walking towards the way I thought it was. It kept repeating over and over again in my head not knowing what I just heard.

I didn't want to accept it.. but how did he move on so fast? Did he not love me enough to the point it would take him time? Why'd he move on so quick?

Was I not enough..? Tears filled my eyes, my throat was now numb as I tried to swallow my emotions down.

I fell, fell hard. I sat on the ground and hugged my knees putting my face in it sobbing.

I was there for an hour. I cried and cried some more wondering why the boy I loved left me for good at an early stage of a break up, though it never connected to me why...