Life without Homa: A man's sudden downfall

Logbook 1

UPCOMING TRANSLATION! TRANSLATION IS IN PROGRESS, INSPECTED AND VISUALIZED BY OUR MOST GIFTED HISTORIANS! FAILURE OF TRANSLATION RESULTS WORKERS BEING DISMISSED, ELIMINATED AND SUPERSEDED.

Day 546 without Staff of Homa. I begin to see images, my eyesight gradually starts to fail as I see bits and pieces of Homa. I began to log them in my journal in-case I could have a breakthrough puzzling them eventually together. Maybe then I would get to see my wife, my husband. the one I love the one I desire for.. Homa?

Nowadays I don't go outside often, if I do there's casualties about to happen. Every other person I see look to be mere reflections of staff of Homa. Whenever I look into the mirror the images Perceived are often or always Homa standing there behind me, telling me what I've done wrong. "You should have pulled for me when you had the chance" I grieve as every day passes without you!

My mind often races with thoughts, as to whether or not my life's only goal of obtaining, seeing, kissing, feeling, touching my love Homa will come to true or not. Staying in-doors has helped me realize and gave me a ton of time to think, I personally see life now as "Obtain Homa or you lose" sort of game. And in this save-file, I lost.. Will I be able to win soon? Or ever?

My memory gradually clears, my childhood is nothing more but a trace of words I can put together. I remember nothing but Homa, as Homa's spirit is now a part of me. I grieve for my loss, but more importantly I grieve for the amount of memories I could have spent with Homa.

 I often tell myself that it's okay, I could still pull Homa in time. I find myself comparing the loved ones like my Family who are now gone to Homa. I feel no remorse about them, as they couldn't understand my wish, my dreams, and my goal. A family that doesn't support your career is not worthy of me, I only wish for them to realize the legacy of Homa.

I punch the screen whenever I see Hu Tao, as Hu Tao reminds me of Homa, and I wish not for a background character to smother, to smudge Homa's legacy. No one is worthy of Homa, you don't get to pick or choose as Homa is the one with the ability and permission to choose.