Wish (Kim Taehyung FF)

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I am a fan of BTS and Taehyung was my bias. I always fangirl whenever I looked into his eyes even though he was looking at the camera and me looking through my phone screen.

But when I came here, I stopped being his fan and stopped fangirling over him because of his behavior and wrong mind set about Islam. I felt nothing when I looked at him anymore but as time is passing, his behavior is getting better and those feelings are also coming back in a stronger way.

His eyes are like a maze, I lost myself in them whenever I had eye contact with him. I forgot my surroundings and couldn't control myself. He also gives off the same feeling like there is no one except me.

Just like yesterday when we were on the stage and he was looking at me, his eyes held a strong feeling I couldn't understand. And the way he holds me when I trip while catching the bouquet. His grip was so gentle like he was holding a petal.

The touch was for a mere seconds but still It was captivating. His fragrance is like a drug that you can't get enough of.

I know whatever I am thinking and feeling is Haram. I shouldn't feel like that and stop my stupid imaginations as if he will ever fall for me. There are thousands of beautiful girls waiting for him, dying for him.

Even if he falls for me there are many barriers. The first and most important is our religion. I can't marry a non-muslim and converting into Islam is really a big decision for someone let alone a celebrity. He will have to leave many things, alcohol, pork, his lifestyle, 'dancing, singing and music' that is basically his life.

I don't think he will ever leave these things just because of me. I need to stop myself before I fall harder for him and it will become impossible for me to return.

"Allah! Plz forgive me for my mistakes that I did intentionally or unintentionally. I know what I am doing is against the teaching of Islam. I promise I will turn my back once my contract is over. I will be the person you told us to be.

Help me, guide me and stop me from going down a wrong path. Keep holding my hands and never let me down. Plz keep blessing me"

With this I started my day and went to the company. Today we all have to leave for London and of course I will be the last one to leave the company because I have to make sure nothing is left.

Once every member left I went to check the rooms.

Outfits✓
Accessories ✓
Shoes✓
Props✓

Lastly, I went to the BTS room because I heard Namjoon left his passport back then and I was right, there was a wallet on the table. I picked it and checked who it belonged to.

There was a family picture of Taehyung. He was smiling with his boxy smile while making a V sign in the middle of  his parents who were hugging him. I was about to close it when my eyes caught something.

It was a receipt with a similar "Halal Restaurant" logo and 'Iftar deal' as a buying product. I checked the customer name and it was indeed Mr Kim Taehyung.

I felt touched at his sweet action. I remembered he also asked Sejin-nim about the Halal food at his reception and made sure I ate something then I also remembered the 'I am sorry' note. I wonder why he was sorry.

I was smiling like an idiot when I heard the door crack open. I turned as I put on a poker face so that whoever it is doesn't think that I am some creep.

When I saw who it was. It became hard for me to control my laugh but I kept the poker face on.

I showed him his wallet and receipt and asked him a bit sternly about the food. The way he was struggling to answer amused me. I have never seen him this hesitant. He was behaving like he got caught red handed.

When I asked him again he answered it in one go. "IWantedToSaySorryBecauseISendYouOutInTheHotTemperatureOnlyToBuyMeTteokbokki" My eyes were wide open in shock. He had apologized to me twice before but he was never this nervous before.

"Did I do something wrong?" He asked doubtfully.

I shook my head as 'No' as I burst into a big fit of laughter at his state, he is sweating like a teenager who just proposed to a girl. He looked at me confused and embarrassment was evident on his face.

"Then why your expression was so scary? I thought I did something terrible that you're this angry" He replied.

"No, You didn't. I was just messing with you" I reassured. "but why are you sweating?" I teased.

"You were looking thirsty for my blood. My soul almost left my body" he said while wiping his forehead.

"We better leave before PD-nim comes for my blood"

Time Skip

There were a large number of fans and media persons at London international airport waiting for BTS even though it was past midnight. Although Everyone was hella tired but still the boys waved and smiled for the fans and put on the best behavior they could.

It was 3am in the morning when we reached the hotel. They have a pre-concert rehearsal at 1pm. As per I know everyone went to sleep directly because of tiredness.

But I can't sleep. I have to eat sehri and then offer prayer. Fajr time will start from 4:48am. Not to waste more time. I went to reception and asked for Halal food making sure to give her prescriptions they have to take while cooking it.

Then I went to my room and freshened up. By the time I was done, my food came. I ate it and drank as much water as I could. Then when it was time to pray, I prayed and then went to sleep.

…

It's 4:55pm. Everyone is done rehearsing and now they are resting for a bit. After an hour they will start getting ready because the concert will start at 8pm.

Camera's✓
Music✓
Speakers✓
Mics and their inears✓
Backup dancers✓

Everything is working properly. I double checked everything.

"Rawah. Why are you so tense?" Jhope asked.

"I just hope everything went well" I answered.

"Don't worry, it will be the best as usual" Suga said.

"You are doing great" Jungkook encouraged.

"Moreover you should also rest or else you will be exhausted" Jimin said.

"When will you break/open your fast?" Taehyung asked.

"7:34pm. Why?"

"How about we take a break during that time so that Muslim fans who are attending our concert can pray and break their fast?" He suggested. I felt touched whenever he cared for us. I felt happy that at least I am able to remove the bad image of Muslims from his mind.

"And we can also restore our energy" Jungkook added.

"That's a nice Idea" I said "but I have to ask PD-NIM first"

"Don't worry we will talk to him" Jin said.

Time Skip

Concert ended pretty well. PD-NIM paid a surprise visit because he was also worried about me managing it alone for the first time and also the first ever kpop concert held in Wembley stadium but he was quite impressed seeing the management.

He also appreciated me and about the break for Iftar and Maghrib prayer, he happily agreed. As the concert finished I was relieved that it went pretty well. A huge burden lift off my shoulder.