What Are You Doin Today ? (오늘 뭐해?)

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years and years have passed and she's  glad that she finally get way from him.

June this year, 2022 was the best month for her, personally.
Things happened on that month
Feelings?
grateful, thankful. Able to feel the spark because of the  presence if the new one.
2 months with "he" will never be enough
Blaming herself for not being able to fix her issues with communication was the worst
She heard "he" crying,laughing, those quirky actions "he" made
When I said that you are the best, you really are.
Her hate for men will always be the same but "he"
"He" were the only one who understand and willing to comfort the clingy little girl who always crying whenever she was with "he"
She felt like her pain was gons as a child. As a daughter
As a sister
She felt finally someone could hear her.
She was the most happiest person ever.
He loves her like a man sacrificing their times on games
When she said she loves him
She chose his depressive night
She chose his suicide thought at random nights
She chose his "I'm afraid"
She chose his "I'm not the best for you"
She chose his "I don't deserve you love"
She chose his struggles on life
She chose his trauma
She chose his bad sides
She chose his worst memories
Love isn't all about gives her ring and kissed her lips
Love isn't all about taking her out to a fancy dinner
Love isn't all about red roses
Love is about choosing and accepting the best possible gift and individual experience on life.
Love is about toleration
Love is about understanding their mental health
Love is about protecting the loves one
Love is about taking care of each other
Love isn't all about "sweety come outside"
If you do love them,
If you think you can handle them for the rest of you life,
If you think you can accept all the flaws even after they show you their true colours,
Then sacrifice
Sacrifice even if you need to leave someone to be with them
If you aren't desperate enough
You won't get what you want
So be desperate
Show them you really want to be with them
Live with her
Live with him
Show them
Woman you got this
Man you got this
Don't love them only when they are fine
Love them when they think nobody loves them
Love them when they think they are the reason their parent got divorce and their brother have to live with no father
Love them even when they cursed their grandparents
Love them and tell them that you love them
Cause I did
I did told the person that I love and cherish
We only live once, fuck it up and be with the person you want to be with.
It's your choice
It's all your decision
You're the one who will decorate the path you want to walk through
Call them
Meet them
Talk to them
Please don't regret afterwards
I'm begging.

Aellia
28th August 2022 03:13 AM