Between The Books-Michael Clifford

Fifty Eight

Michael's POV

"Bec...STOP. I know you worry, but Star's not Kylie. She's tryin' to do the right thing."

"Yeah, so she keeps saying. Trying to keep from hurting Jax, but what about you, Mikey? I mean, supposedly she wants you now. Why isn't she more concerned about your feelings?" Becca says, getting up and walking into the kitchen.

"She is. She's talking to him tonight. She wants this to be over just as bad as I do. You need to understand that she and Jax have been together for a while. It's not just like they met a couple weeks ago. He's a good guy, they had good thing. She's trying to end it in a good way." I say, walking over and picking up my guitar.

"How do you know she's not just stringin' you along, baby brother?! Maybe she wants you AND Jax. Jax is pretty hot, I'd have a hard time kickin' him to the curb too!"

Fucking WHAT?!

"Bec! SHUT THE FUCK UP! What the HELL is your problem?! This has nothin' to do with you! Are you jealous that Star's takin' too much of Mikey's fucking time, or what the fuck?! If you think Jax is so hot maybe you should dump my ass and hook up with him. FUCK!" " Toby yells, getting up from the couch and storming out of the room.

"Nice Becca. You really shouldn't drink. You turn into such a bitch."

The door opens and Star and Scutter walk in. Scutter's grinning and Star's laughing. Well, at least some of us are in a good mood.

"Hey." I say, walking over to her. She reaches up and grabs my face, slamming her lips on mine.

Um, so we're NOT trying to be good? I put my hands on her hips, unsure if I should give it back or....fuck her kiss is HOT and I can feel SHE'S not holdin' back AT ALL.

"Yeah, girl! That's EXACTLY what you should be thinkin' about. Mikey, take your girl back to your room and fuck the shit outta her!" Scutter's laughing. "Becca! You can stop your bitch fest! Jax is old news!"

I pull back from Star, looking at her.

"You talked to Jax?" I ask.

"No, man. He never showed up." Scutter says, grabbing a beer out of the fridge.
"I'm gettin' in the shower. Where's Synna?"

"She's in the shower." Becca says.

"Ahh....perfect." Scutter walks down the hall smiling.

I look back at Star for some explanation.

"It's true! So Jax never showed, that's why I called you. Well, I got a text from Wade after Scutter picked me up. Turns out Jax was there, at the Basement. Drunk as shit and all over some girl!" She says.

"What...tonight?" I say.

"Yeah, can you believe that shit?!" She says, taking off her jacket.

"Wow. Are you...I mean, does that bother you?" I say.

I'm sure it probably doesn't but...it had to be a surprise.

"No! I mean...it bothers me that we've been wasting time when we could've been together, but I have no feelings for Jax anymore. He can screw who he wants." She says, taking my hand in hers.

Shit...Jax seemed really into Star. How the hell could he cheat on her? How could anybody?

"You still gonna have to talk to him, Star. Yeah he's an asshole, but he doesn't know, you know he's fuckin' around on you. So he'll eventually need to hear it from you, that you guys are done."

"Fucking give it a rest, Bec." I say. Jesus.

"Mikey, I'm HAPPY you guys don't have to worry about Jax! I'm just SAYING he thinks you guys are still together, so...."

"Ok, listen..." Star says, interrupting Becca.

"Star, don't pay attention to her, she's just drunk. She's can be a bitch when she drinks." I say, giving Becca a warning look.

"No, no! I get that she's worried about you." She says, nodding at me. "You're her brother, she loves you." She smiles.

"But, Becca...." She says, turning to look at Bec. "..I promise you I'm not avoiding Jax because I'm afraid to end it with him....or, if you're thinking that I still want him...I don't know. I ONLY want Michael." She looks back at me, squeezing my hand. "If Jax had shown up tonight, I would've broken it off with him. Whenever he does, IF he does, I still will. I WON'T hurt Michael, Becca. I could never do that to him. Not being with him these last few weeks, other then here and there....has be so hard."

"Oh, my God, Becca! Leave the girl alone!" Marcus says, from behind us. We turn and see he and Laney coming down the stairs. "She's so far up Mikey's butt I'm surprised she can even see straight!" Marcus says, grinning.

"It's true, Becca. I'm her roommate and I know Star better then anyone here. She hasn't stopped thinking about Mikey since the minute she saw him her first night at the library..." She says, smiling at Star. "...and she forgot about Jax...that very same moment."

Star's face instantly turns red. She smiles and looks down at our hands. God....she's so perfect.

"OK! Fucking ok...I believe you, Star...but I'm also pretty sure I might need reminded tomorrow, because girl....I've been drinking since I got out of my criminal law class and I think that was yesterday..."

Everyone starts laughing, then Marcus says, "No, Becca, that was at 4:00 TODAY."

"Well...fine then. So Star hates Jax...and is in love with my little bro! I think that calls for shots all 'round!" She smiles, and reaches out grabbing several bottles from the counter.

Star grabs my other hand, bringing both hands up to her lips, just like I always do to her. She kisses them, then smiles...the most beautiful, amazing, smile at me.

Fuck....

I don't know if that's true for Star....but I think that's true for me.