BEHIND THAT HOODIE IS HIM(DREAM SERIES 1-2)

CHAPTER 4

Admiring Her From Afar For Now

Someone's POV

"That what? You're having a crush on her? Is that what you wanna say to us?" Basty grinned after he said that.

"I-It's not that---" I cut him off while still not looking at them but I heard everything they said.

"Don't even try to deny it. You were just making it more obvious," I coldly said. Shocked written all over their faces when they didn't have to be surprised.

"H-Hey! I told you already. That's not what I meant to say!" he denied once again. How many times did he have to deny it when he was just making it all obvious every time he tried to?

I stood up after a while. I was just going to return the tray that I ate from and then I will go back to our place but it seems that I want to be alone. I let them wonder that I never got back to them. I just really want to be alone while we still have an hour left in our break time.

I took myself to the vast garden of the campus. Fortunately, I had the book I was reading yesterday with me. I let myself breathe in the fresh air from the garden. The sun's rays were quite strong, so I thought of leaning under a tree. I rested myself there but only a few minutes later I saw the beautiful woman not far from my place. I took a deep breath. It's no wonder why almost all the boys here at Morpheus University are obsessed with her beauty.

And it seems that I am also fascinated because of it. I noticed that she turned to my direction for a moment so I immediately raised the book I was holding to cover my face. When she didn't look back, I watched her carefully. Even with her back turned, she is still very beautiful. The way the wind blows her soft and shiny black hair while the sun shines, the way she smiles makes my heart melt. It was as if my world stopped completely as I watched her sitting on the benches. But a sudden question came to my mind. How long will I watch you from afar? How long will I let myself fall for you without you even noticing? When I talk to you, will you be mine someday?

Simply, I only know one thing is for sure. I'll admire you from afar for now but someday, I'll make sure you're gonna be mine. I'll make you fall for me in my own way. I just hope no one dares to steal you from me...not even Terrence, my best friend.

The one hour that was left was wasted staring at the woman I had long loved from afar when I should have been reading a book. I stood up when she stood up from sitting. I was hiding my face like an idiot who was afraid of being caught by his crush. I know I shouldn't be like this but how could I not be? If this is the right opportunity to see her closer to me. If that's the only way I can love her more even though I'm afraid she'll end up with someone else.

Even my friends don't know about her. I'm afraid that if they find out, that might be the reason for her to find out and avoid me. Am I such a coward? Maybe so but I will still find a way to get her. Even if years or decades pass, I'm willing to wait. And I also don't want Terrence to know about that now that I know he also likes the first girl I love. I was secretly about to follow her when someone called my name. I know she also turned around but later, left. I wanted to chase her but I couldn't.

"Hey! I'm glad I found you. I was looking for you everywhere. Dito lang pala kita mahahanap. By the way, our class almost started. Come on," Beatrix approached me with a smile on her face but my eyes were looking for the girl who just left. I want to finish whatever she wants to say right away. Because it seems I can't rest until I follow the girl I love. I don't want her out of my sight even for a moment. My eyes are used to always seeing her even at a distance. And it seems my feet have a mind of their own to follow him. I didn't look at Beatrix when she called me. I don't care anymore as long as I want to see him.

I was about to call her as I caught her in the hallway, when I saw Terrence suddenly put his arm around her. I thought she was going to remove the arm around her but I was depressed when she just let him. They were laughing while walking as if they had their own world even though some students stole their attention. My heart seemed to be squeezed while looking at them in the distance. I forced myself to turn away from them and I slowly turned away while feeling heavy. I took a deep breath to stop the tears that were about to fall. Why does it hurt so much like hell? Why does loving her from afar seem more painful than I thought? Why is there something telling me to just give her up? Or should I? No. Definitively no, never. I won't just give her up to someone else.

I just ran down the hallway back to the classroom. Just a few of my classmates were there and talking. I immediately sat in my seat and then just took a nap. It's really heavy inside me to see the two of them together.

"Oh hey. Beatrix was waiting for you to come back there at the garden lately. Why you didn't come back anyway? Sino ba yung hinahanap mo daw kanina?" Felicity approached me but I just ignored her. She's Beatrix's best friend, and one of the Queen Bees. I was clearly aware that Beatrix likes me but unluckily, I don't like her. Just a friend, maybe.

"It's none of your business, Felicity. Just tell her to just mind her own business," I coldly replied. Tumikhim siya saglit pero pinikit ko na lang ang mga mata ko nang marinig ko ang ilang bulungan ng mga tao sa paligid ko.

'Did we just see Avy and Terrence together? And they were smiling like that?'

'Oh my gosh! Is there something going on betweem them?'

'Can somebody tell us what's the real status between Avy and Terrence?' rinig kong bulungan nila at parang kinikilig pa na lalo kong ikinainis. Inis kong sinalpak ang headphone ko para di marinig ang mga usap-usapan nila subalit nasaktuhan ko pa na nakitang sabay silang pumasok sa classroom na magkasama at magkaakbay pa rin.

I couldn't help but clench my fist as I stared at them until they returned to their seats. When I felt them glance at me, I just turned around to rest my head on my table. Later I heard our classmates greeting our prof who had just arrived earlier. I didn't bother standing up and greeting him because I wasn't in the mood to do so.

They don't scold me anymore when I take a nap because they are used to seeing me like that but only occasionally. I always listen when they discuss in front but now, I don't feel like listening. My day is ruined today so why should I listen to what they are teaching if I don't understand anything. My ears are closed now. I just want to be alone and I don't feel like talking to anyone, not even my friends. I didn't realize that I had fallen asleep when I felt someone calling and holding my shoulder. I looked to see who it was and it was Terrence. He has been waking me up since the last class ended.

"Bro, wake up. We have to go home. Kanina pa rin ako tinatawagan nila kuya Shan. Are you coming with me?" he said while tapping my shoulder. When I remembered that he was together with the girl I love, I was annoyed so I quickly removed his hand that was holding my shoulder then I took my bag to leave.

I sped up my pace to get to the parking lot and go home. He even tried to chase me while calling my name but I didn't care. Yes, I'm jealous. I'm jealous because I should be the one with her and not Terrence. That should be me who makes her smile and laugh. When I reached the parking lot, I hurriedly got in and drove it until I got home. My nanny, who I have been with for a long time since I was a child, greeted me, but I immediately ran to my room and locked myself in there.

I'm still furious but for now, I have to think about how I can get her attention until she falls for me. I was face down on the bed when suddenly my cell phone rang. Walang gana ko iyon sinagot.

"Hello?" bored kong ani.

"I just want to ask you if you have free time this Friday? 'Yong kasama kasi namin sa banda, biglang nagkasakit. Kaya nag-aalala kami dahil kailangan namin ng vocalist sa biyernes. So, what do you think about it?" my friend stated. Napatayo ako sa pagkakahiga saka napangiti.

"Sure. Asahan mong makakasama ako sa inyo ngayong Friday," I said gladly then I hung up. Now, I have a perfect plan. Remember this, my girl, Ms. Avyanna Fawn Beverleigh. I won't ever give up on you so easily. Even if it might take me a hundred years to make you mine, I won't mind. I love you so I'm willing to risk it all even in my heart. I won't have to love you from afar anymore when I make you fall in love with me.