Against the Reality (BxB) (OMEGAVERSE)

18. Is it okay?

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Do you know how hard is it living all your life thinking you are supposed to end up alone? Growing up my mother imprinted it in my head, never think for one minute that a person would choose you over someone who can give them a family. You can't...

I never hater my mom, ngayon lang. She wanted me to be unhappy like her. I would always crave the thing she said wasn't intended for me.

Loving Grael was my highest moment. He makes me feel I am someone important. His eyes show me that I deserve to be loved, that I deserve the attention and care.

I wanted those from my parents. That was why I went for everyone who could give it to me. Having sex for a moment gives me that illusion that someone wants, someone would want to stay with me, that it was fine if we didn't have kids.

But here this man here is saying he wants me above everyone else? How could that be?

"You're so good at running away from me, a-all the t-time..." aniya na parang nahihirapang humihikbi habang nakayakap sa akin. Talagang humahagulgol siya. I never saw him like this before sa akin lang, lage. I know now that he loves me, he was willing to ruin and leave everything for me.

"I'm sorry... sorry..." Wala akong ibang masabi sakaniya kung hindi iyon. Umiiyak na rin ako. Hinahaplos ko yung buhok niya. He grew up yet he still acts my baby.

Nasa ganoong posisyon kami nang mga isang oras siguro. He looked up at me. "Marry me, Kellany, please..."

I gasped. "Ha?"

"I feel so complete... You gave me our daughter. I love you both kahit ilang taon akong wala. Marry me? Please?" ulit niyang tanong sa akin.

I pulled away from him and I felt the discomfort when I felt his warmth leaving my body.

I bit my finger unintentionally, "Are you sure you want me? Me? Meadow is a miracle and I can't give you a children anymore. She was it... She is my everything but you..." I stopped pacing. Hindi ka na iiyak nanaman.

"You could have anyone and anything..."

Nakita ko ang lungkot at pagkadismaya sa mukha niya dahil sa tinugon ko.

Yumuko siya at kinagat ang ibabang labi niya. Mugto na nga ang mata niya tapos nakita kong may pumatak nanaman, pulang pula na buong mukha niya, kakaiyak. "A-alam ko... p-pero...." he started sobbing again. Mas iyakin siya ngayon kesa noon. "All I want is you and what I need is you... This isn't lust or illusion, Kellany. I am in love with you and since then everyone and anything else didn't matter... Please believe me..."

"Do you really? What if... Baka naman dahil sa anak ko kaya mo ko-"

he cuts me off, at kahit mugto ang mata niya I saw the hint of anger in his eyes. "Natin... anak natin. Mahal kita, I don't know about everyone else pero mahal kita."

Ang bigat na nang puso ko. Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ba ako o ano. Ang daming what ifs sa utak ko. Masyado siguro akong nasaktan noon.

When I went back to Manila wala naman sa isip ko ang makita na talaga siya e. The moment I left tinanggap ko na wala na siya sa akin, na wala nang kami, na kung magkakaroon man siya nang iba hahayaan ko na lang.

But then I got pregnang which was really a miracle and my once in a lifetime. Siguro naawa talaga sa akin si Papa Lord so he gave me my daughter...

I shook my head, at napalunok ako. Umatras ako konti. "Hindi ko alam, Grael. Nasaktan ako... Alam kong hindi totoo yung mga yon pero nung panahon na iyon. Nasaktan ako..." Pag amin ko sakaniya. Pinunas ko yung kamay ko sa gilid nang pajama ko. Pinagpapawisan e.

He stood up towering me. I feel like his leaking his pheromones but I can't really tell, I still hate myself for being a beta. I wanna smell him, his scent. Ugh. Lagi ko silang naririnig na amot citrus and gum daw ang scent niya.

Noon bumili ako nang shower gel na kagaya nang scent niya! Lalo na nung nag lilihi palang ako sakaniya! Ang hirap kayang hanapin. Ngumawa pa nga ako kay Svern non para mahanap yon.

I heard his sigh, "Do you want me to grovel?" Medyo okay na yung salita niya nakahuna na yata kakangawa ito e.

"Ha?"

Medyo loading ako. "Kasi I would, I will do anything for you lalo na ngayon. Give me a chance, please. Five years... Please."

Sasagot na sana ako when I heard a door open, napalingon kami. I wiped my tears agad.

Lumitaw ang maliit niyang ulo na pupungas pa, she pouted at lumapit sa akin. Hawak niya pa yung bingky niya. "Momsy, I want milk po." Hindi niya pa napansin yung katabi ko na parang mahihimatay na yata.

Dahan dahan akong lumapit sa anak ko. "Oh baby, okay. I forgot e. Sorry po." I kissed her cheeks nung binuhat ko siya. Pumunta kami sa mini kitchen, she leaned her cheeks on my chest. Napasulyap ako kay Grael kasi hindi niya alam kung ano gagawin niya.

Nginuso ko yung upuan sa harap nang lamesa. So he sat there... I feel like he was shivering.

Nakatingin lang siya sa anak namin. Namin! Gods. Akala ko sa panaginip ko lang masasabi or makikita yon. Pero hindi pala.

"Can I... uh.. carry her?" Mahinang wika niya.

Napatingin kami ni Meadow sakaniya. Nakita niya kasing nahihirapan akong mag timpla. "Baby, you want to go to him? You saw him earlier diba baby?"

She looked at him, then back at me,"Momsy you said don't talk to stranger kanina po?"

I heard Carlisle chuckled. I almost rolled my eyes on him, pinigilan ko na lang e.

"O-oo nga. I did say that anak but of course. Uhm. Later... I will explain, sige na don ka muna anak para makatimpla na ako."

Di na siya nakaangal pa kasi inabot ko na siya and when Grael held our daughter. My heart almost skipped a beat. It touched my heart, I almost tear up.

Tinuloy ko na ginagawa ko nasulyapan kong nakatitig lang si Meadow kay Grael tas si Grael hinahaplos yung bata tapos nakangiti. Buti na lang gwapo tong si Grael e kung hindi mukha tuloy siyang nakakatakot.

"Hi..." I heard Grael say to her. Inabot ko na yung gatas tapos sumandal muna ako sa may tabi nang lababo habang nakamasid sakanila.

May mga times na kung titignan mo siya kamukha niya ama niya. I almost sobbed. I feel so happy and complete yet I'm still scared.

"Are you daddy?" She said in a whisper. Oh My God.